Thwaites & Thompson

Gerard...

Thompson

"Tess?"

No matter how hard I tried not to make a sound, I still woke Madonna up...

I shut my eyes and sniff.

"You're crying again, aren't you?" She sighs.

"I'm sorry..." I chuckle pitfully.

"What?!"
"Don't apologize for crying stupid!" She throws a pillow at me and I chuckle when I find her hopping onto my bed.

"Talk to me..." She sighs again.

I weakily pull myself into a seated position.

"I miss him." I shrugged.

"Then-"

"Don't..." I shook my head, shutting my eyes hopelessly.

"Alright..."
"But what are you going to do?"
"Are you trying to move on?" She frowned a little.

"Yeah..."
"I guess this is moving on." I nod at her.

"Then I don't like it!" She flared her nostrils.

"It's unhealthy! It sucks!"
"This will get you sick!"
"You barely sleep and you're not eating well!"
"I want you to do something about it or I will." She nodded and then she retreated.

I sigh, sliding back under my bed covers.

God, please guide me...
I'm lost, confused, and hurting...

*****

It was the first time for me to wake up after Adam and not in the same time...

His side was empty and the room was clear.

My smile instantly forms at the thought that maybe he was making me breakfast...

I heard movement beyond his door and I pull myself up, grinning.

"He's definitely making me breakfast..." I whispered to myself before I jumped out of bed and made it before I left his room and tiptoed to mine, not wanting him to see me until I was changed and well groomed.

I felt so light, like a butterfly...

I smiled at myself in the mirror, flushing as the memories race into my mind, replaying themselves...

I still couldn't believe Adam and I showered together.
I couldn't believe he kissed me in the shower, under the running water...

Remnants of last night's heat had now settled for faint throbs that I felt between my thighs.
I felt a bit itchy, maybe a bit sore too, but the pleasure overthrew the pain.

I bring the hem of his shirt to my nose but then I cringe.
I was hoping to smell his signature body scent, not some linens detergent.

Although I prefered keeping it on, I knew I had to take it off, not wanting to risk Nala seeing me in Adam's shirt.

So I take it off and put on a bra and a soft white full-sleeves shirt over dark purple shorts.

I brush my hair thoroughly and then I finally leave my room with a smile on my face that dies as soon as I step into the kitchen.

My feet stopped moving in the doorway and Nala turned to pass me a bored glance.

"Umm-do you know where Adam is?" I ask.

"I thought he was asleep..." She replies in a bored tone with her back to me.

I felt my heart sting.

"Bummer..." I whispered to myself.