L A B I N G L I M A
"Ang akala ko ba ay ok na? Tatanggapin mo yung project together with King? And we're about to start today but unfortunately, I have to cancelled for today because I have to talk to you."
I didn't mean to dump him. It's just that, I can't stand that King is just near me. Ayoko na siyang makausap. "Hindi pa ko handa na magtrabaho, sir." though handang-handa na ko at talagang gusto ko ng magtrabaho. But things, change. Para ngang gusto ko ng magshift next sem.
"You can't just say no when you already said yes, ms. Sanroa. At yung lagi kong sinasabi sa inyo, set aside your personal issues. Kung dahil kay King, naiintindihan ko na nasa moving on stage ka pa. Pero hahayaan mo bang mapakawalan yung opurtunidad na binigay sayo dahil hindi mo siya kayang harapin?"
My Christmas didn't went well. Maybe it's not destined to be well because of happenings. But I have to continue living. I know that all these matters that I've been through will come to its end and will I finally got my happy ending.
I just realized last night that there's really no way in escaping in to the person you really want to escape for. You will always end up seeing that person because fate is playful and sometimes, it want us to suffer. Suffer for I don't know.
We both deserve to be happy. If he got his happiness, I guess I should also start to find my own. Nagsasawa na rin ako sa ganitong buhay. Yung ipinagpapalit. I think I deserve to be love and not to left by.
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I just learned that we have the actually same firm and in future, we will able to see each other accidentally or not. At posible naman talaga kaya iyon kaya bakit pa ko iiwas ngayon kung ganoon lang din naman pala gagawin ko sa susunod. Then atleast, ngayon pa lang, I'm trying to conquer my fear on seeing him.
Pagdating ko sa location ay nagsisimula na sila. May kaunting renovation na nagaganap dahil dati itong opisina at medyo palalawakin ang kusina.
"Ms. Sanroa! I'm glad you're here!" lumapit sa akin si Mr. Garcia at agad akong inalok ng shake hands at inabot ko naman iyon. "I really want the job. And I already decide the day we talked."
And there, I saw King pointing on the corner giving instructions. He's really has the future to be an engineer. He is serious ang smart in all things. Baka nga kahit ano na pag-aralan niya ay magagawa niya ng maayos or he can make it better.
"You surely will have a hard time to move on if you'll going to stare him every single day." Mr. Garcia tease and call King's attention. "King! You're partner is here." His eyes landed on mine. And I can't figure out him. I sighed. He's back. The old King before I met him. "Good morning, ms. Sanroa. You're already 30 minutes late."
"There's no transpo."
"Then try to wake up earlier as much as possible." Then he get back to his work. Mr. Garcia smirk on my side and crossed his arms above his chest. "Do you like me to stay for the entire time?" I looked at him and shook my head. "I think I can manage."
"If you say so."
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"I said put it there! Bakit hindi mo ikakabit yan?! Do you want this structure to disassemble easily?!"
"Pasensya na po, sir. Pasensya na po."
"Puro na lang pasensya! Ayusin niyo naman yung trabaho niyo!"
Pumasok ako sa loob kung nasaan ang pinagalitan niya at lumabas naman siya. Lumapit ako sa isang worker at tinanong kung anong nangyari. "What happened?"
"Nakalimutan lang pong idagdag yung kahoy. Hindi naman po sinasadyang makalimutan." tumango ako at bumuntong hininga. "I understand. Pagpasenyahan niyo na si King."
The entire 2 months is so stressful like what I've expect. I only have 5 hours of sleep because there's some changes on the designs because King refuses to others. And I think, he really makes this hard for me. Hindi naman siya ang may-ari pero kung ipabago niya ang lahat ng ideya ay akala mo siya ang may-ari nito. But the thing is, pumapayag ang may-ari! Nababaliw na ata sila para ipagkatiwala kay King ang lahat!
Lumabas ako at dumiretso sa kabilang side kung nasaan ako kanina. May mga silid ng sinisimulan ng designan at doon na ko in charge. And I won't be surprise if King show here right now and tell us that he don't want the idea. And if he will consistently do that, our project will be more than 4 months. And I can't add more. I almost ditch my class because of this. At hindi ko na rin ata kakayanin ang night shift!
When 5 o'clock strikes, we start packing up and prepare to get home but unluckily, I still have to attend classes until 10 pm. And when I got home, I have to revise AGAIN the design for the office. At isang-isa na lang, makakapatay na ko ng hari.
"Mauna nako sa inyo. Mag-ingat kayong lahat. Bye." tumakbo ako agad palabas dahil 30 minutes na kong late sa isa kong subject. Buti na lamang ay dalawang oras iyon pero hindi pa rin mabuti. Dahil araw-araw na lang akong ganto! Late kung pumasok. Pinayagan naman na ko ni mr. Garcia to leave by 4:30 on my work but King is so persistent to annoy me! He said that I received my salary complete so I should do the same. And I have no choice because he won't stop and I don't want to make any arguments with him. As much as possible, I handle my feelings towards him. Not in a romantic way. But in a way that I can make grudge for him.
"Can you please pick me up? There's no transpo here and I am about to be crazy!" I wiped my tears as it shed. I don't know why I'm crying because of this but the mere fact that everything is getting rough each day pass, I just want to give up and just burn my ass inside my house. "Ok. Ok. Just chill there. I'll be there in 5."
And like what he said, in just 5 minutes, he came. Mas mabilis pa siya sa uber. Oo nga. May uber nga pala. Bakit hindi ko naisip iyon? Damn! Ang tanga-tanga mo kahit kailan MJ!!
"Don't tell me you cried over this?" I nodded my head and hug him. "You're a life savior. Thank you! Let's go. Matatapos na ang klase ko. I have to be there."
Mav drive as fast as he can. Hindi ko na rin naramdaman iyong takot dahil na rin sa gusto ko ng makapasok. I can't drop ng dahil lang sa lates ko though may consent naman na ako from school dahil hiningi kami ni sir. Pero hindi pa rin ako sanay.
"Do you want me to fetch you later?"
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"Oops, baby I love you."
Sabay ko sa huling lyrics ng kanta ng Little Mix. At sakto ay may nakasalubong ako sa hallway. Nagulat ako at muntik ko ng mabitawan ang mga gamit ko.
Thank God. Ginising mo rin siya sa katotohanan na nahihirapan na ko. "You have to change your outlines in office!" huminto ako sa paglalakad at agad nag-init ang ulo ko sa narinig ko. Pagod ako sa trabaho. Pagod ako sa eskwelahan. Yung antok at gutom ko, naghahalo-halo na. Ano pa bang gusto niya? Makitang gumagapang ako pauwi dahil sa pagod?
Masama ko siyang tinignan at kahit malayo ako ay sinubukan ko pa ring ibato ang heels ko sa kanya. Luckily, dumulas lang papunta sa kanya ang heels ko ng ihagis ko to.
Pagkakuha ko ay naglakad na muli ako palabas at nilagpasan ang sapatos ko. Pinunasan ko na rin ang mga luhang tumulo sa mata ko. Pero tulo pa rin sila ng tulo.
Never in my life that someone reach the peak of my sufferance. Even Ava and ate Tasya. I never get annoyed easily. I always tell myself that they will get tired and will immediately stop when they realized that I don't really care. But this is different. Sobra-sobra na iyong inabot. Dalawang buwan pa lang. Akala ko ay matitiis ko. Hindi pala. Kasi, namemersonal na siya. At kapag naman sinabi ko sa kanya iyon, idedeny niya.
"When he will stop bugging me? Can we just work and be a proffesional? Hindi ko na ata kakayanin."
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I was thinking if I will publish the story I was making since last week.
