Torn Between Two

Chapter 11: All Hope Is Lost

"Miranda have I ever told you how much I love you?"Jon said.
"Everyday since the first, and you've showed me to." I said and he smiled.
"I love you like the ocean it goes on forever." He said.
"When did Jonathan Lee Good become do romantic?" I asked.
"As soon as I lost you. I realized you deserve better. Even though I know your going to go back to Jay after this I want to cherish it." He said.
"Jon don't think...." Was all I could say before he cut me off.
"I'm not, I'm cherishing you. Kissing you, holding you, imagining you being Mrs.Good. Us having Brianna Rose Good running around the house." He said kissing my forehead.
"You remembered everything I told you. Every future plan I dreamed up for us. You remembered." I said happily.
"Yeah I did. I sat in a hotel room and thought about everything you told me for three days." He said.
"I don't know what to say." I said.
"I know you don't you didn't do that." He said.
"I still thought about you." I said.
"Why did you sleep with him?" Jon asked in a serious tone.
"I felt abandoned and alone. He said that you were stupid for doing that to me on the night that I was going to do the deed with you. He then said he would die to have me in his bed like that, and then apologized and I kissed him, and on it went from there." I said.
"You did it in the car?" He asked.
"No in his hotel." I said.
"Oh." He said.
"I love your smile. I love your dimple. I love your eyes and the way you smell. The way you hold me." I said.
"All of me loves all of you." He said.
"Tell me what you love about Jay." He said.
"Jon do you really want to hear it?" I asked.
"Yes." He said.
"I love the way he can make me laugh. The way his eyes shine in the light. The way his hair turns orange in certain light. The way he talks about certain things like me and him. The way he touches me and I get that feeling that makes me warm inside." I said.
"Oh. You pay attention to him a lot." Jon said a little sad.
"I pay attention to you a lot to. Like I love the way your arms flex when you move them. The way you say like in interviews. The way you bite your fingernails during awkward silence. The way you hair looks when it dries out. The way you talk about our future
and care about me. All of it, I pay attention." I said.
"Wow you do. I pay attention to you to. I love the way your brown eyes look when you talk about something you love. The way your hair flows when you walk. The way you smile. The way you perfect everything that you do in that ring. The way you sing when your doing something boring. The way you say I love you. Everything about you drives me crazy." He said.
"Has Jay told you that?" He asked.
"Kinda." I said. "I have to go Jon, I'll call you in a hour or so, okay?" I said.
"Okay be safe, don't do anything I wouldn't and that means Jay." He said smiling.
"Bye Jon, I love you." I said.
"Bye. I love you to." He said as he pecked my lips.