Torn Between Two

Chapter 7: Broken Down

"Jay I need to talk to you about something." I said.

"What?" He asked.

"I feel wrong about what is happening between us. I don't want to hurt you. I feel as if I'm using you because I love Jon to." I said.

"What are you saying?" He asked.

"I'm saying that we can't spend each and every night in each others arms if I'm not sure who I love more." I said.

"I love you. I can't stand not being by you though. I need you in my arms. I need to see you smile. I need your everything." He said and I started crying. "Why are you crying." He asked.

"Because I can't do this. I can't do us, and I can't do Jon and I. I just can't do love. I don't know how to handle it." I said still crying.

"Yes you can. Don't cry. Miranda you know how love it's just complicated." He said.

"Yeah its complicated. Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier if I hadn't meet up with you again. If I forgave

Jon. If I hadn't kissed you that night." I said.

"You regret us. You regret every part of this. You regret meeting me. You regret the night you told me you wouldn't regret!" He said.

"I don't regret it. I cherish it. What I regret is yelling at Jon. I'm sorry Jay that I brought you into this messed up relationship!" I slightly yelled.

"I'M SORRY YOU DON'T LOVE ME!" He yelled.

"WELL I'M SORRY THAT YOUR TO DUMB TO REALIZE THAT I LOVE YOU. I'M SORRY THAT I CAN NEVER FIT THAT PERFECT MOLD OF A GIRLFRIEND THAT YOU WANT! I'M SORRY I LOVE JON, OKAY?!" I yelled. "I'LL SEE YOU AT RAW!" I yelled leaving and crying.

THE ARENA

I got into my locker room and changed into my ring attire. I started crying again just thinking about what me and Jay had just been through. I look myself in the mirror.

"They said don't mix pleasure with business because it's a painful game, they were right." I said as I looked myself in the mirror.

"Not as bad as you think, you just have to get past the obstacles that stand in your way." Jon said appearing behind me.

"Have troubles knocking?" I asked wiping away my tears.

"No I forgot sorry. Just use to coming in and not knocking." He said.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

"I need your love. I need your emotion and smiles. I even miss those da** little fights we got into just because at least then I could hear your voice. I think about it everyday. I think about how I should of made you mine and how I should of asked you to marry me inside of sleep with me. I hate myself even more everyday because what I did to you. You know you never know you love someone as much as you do until its to late and they're gone." He said with pain and sorrow in his eyes and voice.

"I know that Jon, and I miss you to. I don't even know what to do anymore. I love two people and I can't help it. The more I try to get out of the hole the deeper I fall in. I wish I could erase feelings sometimes. Love hurts. I love you and Jay and I don't what to do anymore." I said starting to cry again.

"Princess I know this might pain you to hear this put sleeping together and crying after isn't love. It's a painful game I know. What we had was love. We used to be so happy before my dumb self had to mess things up." He said.

"I really do love Jay, okay. I know what we had was love because every time I'm around you I feel that little spark and a warm feeling washes over my body. Kinda like I felt when I first started watching wrestling." I said.

"They say it was never love if you stop loving them." He said leaning closer to my face.

"They're right." Was all I could say before his lips were on mine. I felt that spark again. It was not just a spark this time it was more like a fire though. Are lips moved in sync. I pulled back.

"That's love." He said.

"That's love and you have to be careful because that fire we just felt, it can burn you." I said.