Torn Between Two

Chaper 38: Worries With Love

"You are so perfect Miranda." Jay said still panting and sweating from what we had just done.

"No Jay you are the perfect one." I said.

"Thank you, I love you." He said.

"I love you to." I said.

"I've realized something." Jay said.

"What?" I asked.

"This is the first time we made love and I didn't have to worry about you going back to Jon after. Da** it feels good to." He said.

"It feels good to be in your arms, but unfortunately I have to go take a shower." I said and I got out of bed.

"Wait stop!" Jay said.

"What?"

"Puts your hands up, just remember anything you say will and can be held against you, so say my name." He said.

"Jay your so gross!" I yelled.

"You know you love it!" He yelled back.

"Wanna take a shower with me?" I asked

"Yes!" He said leading us into the bathroom.

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(Jon's part).

I spent an hour listening to Miranda and Jay make love, and believe me she and him got some chemistry. I hated listening to their love sounds, I use to be the cause of hers. I pushed her away though, I cheated, I lied, I made empty promises, I made her cry, and I made her heart break. I wanted to fight for her back, but I couldn't. I wanted to but I just didn't have the strength to fight for her back. No one did in this point of her and Jay's relationship. It would have to be a miracle for that to happen. She is an angel and she deserves a good man and Jay is that good man. He is that good man I want to be. That good man that should be marrying her and the one to have kids with her. I needed to be a perfect guy for her to come back to her, and everyone knows I'm far from perfect, and she liked that most about me at least that is what she said. I think she got sick of me a long time ago. I just never wanted to let go of her because I didn't want her to run away like everything else in my life. But she did and there is no more fire or even sparks anymore. Just me down on a cold hard floor trying to figure out how to pick the broken pieces and put them back together with bandages. It's useless, but I refuse to give up because I'm Jonathan Good and I've been broken one to many times and I've learned a lot from love, if you hold on to tight it leaves and if you hold on to loosely it leaves, but if you hold on just right it stays forever and right now I'm holding on to loosely. I'm going to try and win her back and I'm not going to quit until she says I do to him at a chapel.