Torn Between Two

Chapter 52: The Words Hurt

"Miranda come on its okay.You can get another storyline." Jay said comforting me about our failed storyline.

"Jay, I needed that storyline to get to the top of that stupid Divas division. Jon had to go mess it up."

"Miranda its okay. I bet they are already planning something for you right now."

"Yeah well I'm not on the match card tonight and I need a match. How am I suppose to be in WrestleMania if I can't even get a match on Raw but the rookies can."

"It's okay love. You'll get in WrestleMania."

"Jay I'm so stressed and we just got engaged two days ago."

"It's okay don't get stressed."

"I have to be. I have to go to Jon's house and get my stuff and move to your house, then the day after we have to do engagement photos, then the week after that we have to go to Canada and meet your parents. Which I'm very nervous about. Then we have a bunch of wedding stuff to plan and I have to focus on wrestling and not letting Jon get in my head. It's just so stressful."

"I think you need like a day off or something. Miranda your fine." He said.

"No I'm not Jay."

"Miranda you need something to calm you down."

"Maybe I should call Colt Cabana he cheers me up. He is a very funny man, maybe I should ask him if I can get in his 5 dollar wrestling shows and on the Art Of Wrestling podcast."

"See no need to worry. Everything will be fine. You have people here that care and won't let you fall." Jay said and I thought of Jon and how I let him fall.

"Do you really think we should get married?" I asked.

"Yes, why do you?" He asked with concern.

"Yes but everything is going to fast. I just want to lock myself in a room and scream and cry."

"Miranda its starting to seem like you don't want to get married right now."

"I do Jay! I'm just so stressed, Jon asked to give me to you at the wedding and I haven't even started planning anything."

"What did you say to Jon?"

"Y-y-yes." I said.

"Why did you say yes to that jerk. I don't want him giving you to me."

"Jay it is my wedding to. I's become we's."

"Does it look like we are married right now?"

"No, the only it looks like is a single man."

"What do you mean by that."

"Your being a jerk Jay."

"Well I don't want Jon to give you to me."

"Well I do."

"Well it's my wedding to." Jay said mocking me.

"Here you find another girl to marry." I said throwing his engagement ring at him.

"Miranda, hey don't be like that."

"But you can?!"

"I'm sorry!"

"No your not!"

"Yes I am please put this ring back on."

"No. I don't want a ring means nothing to you." I said getting annoyed.

"Babe. It means the world to me because it shows all we stand for."

"Which right now is nothing!"

"Miranda please. I'm sorry!"

"Jay I'm not putting the da** thing on!" I said breaking down crying.

"Hey love it's okay." Jay said wrapping his arms around me.

"I think I need a break from me and you."

"Why? I love you ,please don't do this we have engagement photos tomorrow and we have a life together now. I don't want a break."

"I know you don't want a break. I don't want one either. I'm just trying to process things that will make me feel better."

"Well a break will not make you feel better it just leaves you to think about everything that has failed. Causes depression, and I don't want my beautiful fiancé to have depression."

"I know Jay, I just feel sad, worried, afraid and the list goes on. I feel like if I didn't say yes to you or Jon I wouldn't be here right now, but then I think about all those happy times with you and I and remember that I should be thankful for all of this."

"I know it is a little hard but you just have to get back on and try harder. Love is like wrestling, it's an art, but it takes a while to master. Some people love it, some people hate it. You have to be talented to keep it, and lucky to get to the big leagues, which is marriage or on wrestling's case WWE. Its a craft you have to practice, you live it, breath it and eat it."

"Except in love you don't get happy endings."

"You don't always get happy endings in wrestling."

"Your right. I'm a freaking professional wrestler. I have been through every obstacle there is, a wedding is just another one. I'm going to tell Jon that Dusty is going to give me to you."

"You don't have to that. I want him to do it. It's his proper goodbye."

"How did you know that?"

"Because I was going to ask to do that your's and his wedding."

"Oh."

"I love you." He said kissing me.

"Let's go to the hotel."

"No lets go play in the rain."

"Jay it's 11:30 pm and you want to play in the rain?"

"Yes."

"Okay. The things I do for you." I said and he grabbed my hand and took me to the car. We headed to the park. The ride was silent like always. I turned on the radio and We Belong Together came on. We pulled up to the park and we got out but Jay kept the radio on.

"May I have this dance." He asked holding out his hand. I put my hand in his and he slipped on my engagement finger on and pulled me close to him. I dance with him and thought about everything. The song ended and we sat on the end of the car.

"I love you." Jay said looking me in the eyes and leaning in.

"I love you to." I said before our lips touched. He pulled me closer to him. He sat me on top of his lap. You Found Me by The Fray played as his lips moved in sync with me as the rain poured on us. He picked me up and he got off the back of the car. He open the back door of the car and he laid me down on the back car seat. He got in a hovered over me. He kissed me as he removed my shirt. I took off his shirt, and I pulled back from the kiss to look at him. Eyes full of lust and love, his body glistened from the light hitting the rain drops on his body, hair slicked down from the water, a smile forming on his lips as I told him I loved him. I took off his pants and he took off mine. I kissed him again. He slid off my underwear and unclasped my bra. I took of his boxers.

"I love you so love." He said kissing my neck.

"I love you to." I said and the radio played Try by P!nk. Mine and Jon's making love song. Just great, but I didn't care. I let Jay pleasure me as Stay came on. He kissed every inch of my body. He held on to me tight and I felt right. He pleasured me and I moaned as he did it. He was perfect in every way and I wasn't going to let go of him ever. Jon was right he is was my prince but this relationship was going to last forever. Me and Jay we did it, we made love and that's what I was searching for. It was great.