Torn Between Two

Chapter 41: Bad Love

"I have to go to the gym, and since they don't have a gym here I have to go across town to go to the gym. Wanna come with?" Jay asked.

"No you go ahead, when will you be back?" I questioned.

"In about three hours." He said looking at the clock.

"Okay be safe Jay." I said and he pecked my lips.

"I love you." He said.

"I love you to." I said. He grabbed his gym bag and left. I sat down on the couch in the living room and turned on Duck Dynasty. A couple minutes into the show I heard a knock at the door.

"Must be Jay, probably forgot something." I thought. I got up and answered the door.

" Jon what are you going here?" I asked confused.

"We need to talk bad." He said.

"About what Jon, you said you would leave me alone." I said.

"Can I come in your hotel?" He asked.

"Oh yeah. Take a seat on the couch." I said.

"Again with the question." I said sitting next to him on the couch.

"I wanted to talk about us." He said.

"Us? Jon there is no us anymore." I said.

"I know that, and I can't stand it either. I want us back." He said.

"I already make an us with someone else." I said.

"I know Jay." He said.

"Jon, I don't want to be with you anymore. I'm really happy with Jay." I said.

"So you can honestly say that you don't love me?" He asked.

"No I can't. I will always love you Jon. I told you that." I said.

"Miranda I can't get over you ever. I cry because I miss you. I won't touch other woman like I touched you. You were the first woman I touched liked that. I touched you with love." Jon said looking in my eyes,desperately trying to find some emotion.

"I touched you with love to Jon, but that's the keyword...." I said before getting cut off. I felt Jon's lips on mine. I kissed him back slowly not wanting pull back. I was stuck under his spell. It felt so good to have his lips on mine again. I ran my fingers through his hair. I thought of Jay and I pulled back. He tried kissing me again but I put my hand on his lips. He pulled back looking confused.

"Why did you stop?" He asked.

"This is wrong. I'm with Jay." I said.

"No let me have you for one night. Please. Let me give you something Jay can't." He said.

"You can't do that." I said.

"Why not?" He asked.

"Jay gives me everything I need." I said.

"He does." He asked.

"Yes." I said.

"Of course." He mumbled getting up. Tears started running down his cheek.

"Why does he always win was is mine. Why do you love him so much? What does he give you that makes you feel like a princess?" He said pacing back and fourth looking at me.

"Time and love." I said.

"I gave you that to. Why I'm I always someone second choice? Why I'm I always the one left behind to hurt?! WHY DID YOU SAY HOLD ON TIGHTER TO ME IF YOU WERE ONLY GOING TO LET GO!" He yelled in a raspy voice, he started to break down.

"Jon calm down." I said.

"Calm do... Calm down! YOU WANT

ME TO CALM DOWN! I WILL CALM DOWN WHEN I'M NOT CRYING OVER YPU ANYMORE. WHEN YOU ARE BACK IN MY ARMS SO I CAN HOLD YOU AND SAY I LOVE YOU!"

He yelled. He punched the wall and

I flinched. I started crying and look over at me with a softened face.

"Miranda I'm sorry." He said walking over to and hugging me.

"No your not. Your not sorry for anything." I said crying on his shoulder. I wanted to push him off but I didn't have enough strength.

"Yes I am. I'm sorry for every fu**ing thing I put you through.... I'm sorry." He whispered the last thing. He pulled me into a tighter hug. I held on to him and cried. He picked me up bridal style and carried me to my room in the hotel. He laid me on the bed. He closed the door and locked it.

"Jon what are you doing?" I asked still crying.

"What we both need." He said walking over to me. He got on top of me on the bed and kissed me passionately. I kissed back. He unbuttoned my shirt and took it off of me. I felt his hit tear on my cheek. I pulled back from the kiss.

"Jon why are you crying?" I asked.

"Your finally in my arms again and I can't believe it." He said.

He kissed me again, I slipped off his shirt.

"Turn us over Jon." I said and he did so.

I looked at his bare chest. I laid kissed all across his chest. He moaned. I unbuckled his belt and I pulled down his pants. He unbuttoned my pants and I helped him take them off. He looked at my body.

"I love you like the ocean it goes on forever." He said.

"I love you to." I said.