Torn Between Two

Chapter 32: Us

"Miranda are you hungry?" Jay asked as we watched TV in the living room.
"A little." I said.
"What some pancakes?" He asked.
"Yeah,I didn't know you could cook." I said.
"I'm full of surprises." He said walking into the kitchen. I got up and followed him in there.
"Thanks for being great Jay, your the best." I said.
"Could you picture living here in the future?" He asked.
"Yeah. It's family friendly, I love the decoration in it. It's my dream home and the best part of it all is I would be with you." I said.
"Can I ask you something?" Jay asked.
"Yeah." I said.
"Who was your first time?" He asked.
"Jon was. I was fifteen and he took me in. I felt loved, and he kissed me and it lead to a little more." I said.
"Oh." He said putting a plate in front of me and he sat down next to me.
"I wanna be your last." He said kissing my lips gently.
"So Jay, who have you dated in the company." I asked.
"Barbra Blank aka Kelly Kelly and Layla." He said.
"Wow. So what was your ex like." I asked.
"She was wonderful and she is beautiful. I loved her like crazy." He said.
"Why did you guys get divorced?" I asked.
"I felt like I wasn't making her happy anymore. I was always on the road, she needed love and ours was disappearing slowly." He said.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"No it's okay it it hadn't happened I wouldn't be here." He said.
"I'll love you like the ocean, it goes on forever." Jon's voice ran through my head.
"What do you want to do today?" He asked.
"How about you tell Adam and Chris were here and we can hang out?"
I asked.
"That sounds great." He said.
I finished my food and I cleaned my plate and Jay's.
"Can I go take a shower?" I asked.
"Can I join?" He asked.
"Yeah. Come on." I said.

(I'm going to do Jon's part right now bare with me).

"Jon come on you can't just sit there and cry over a girl. What happened to the Jon that didn't believe in love?" Colby said.
"He disappeared when Miranda came through the doors of that wrestling company. She is walking love." Jon said.
"Jon come you have to do something besides cry." Joe said.
"No I don't deserve to do anything else. I don't deserve to live, she was want was worth living. I don't deserve to have fun, I don't deserve anything. I hurt her, so now I'll hurt me." Jon said.
"Jon you can't do that she would want you to be happy." Colby said.
"Then why she live with Jay to his house. She went with him and god knows what there doing. I miss her, and I can't help it. She is my obsession. Beautiful love. Hurt love. I'm going crazy. I need her Colby. I hurts me so much I could die, but sometimes I think It would better If I did." Jon said.
"No Jon it wouldn't, you would kill Miranda along with you. She went with Jay to go get a break. She probably misses you. Jon she is crazy over you. She hurts like you, she loves like you. You both our one, both not good without the other." Joe said.
"She is just fine. Happy with Jay, hurt with Jon. I hate this. I need her and I can't have her. I just wanted love! I JUST WANTED LOVE!" Jon yelled and he broke down crying.
"Jon I'm sorry do you want us to call her?" Joe asked.
"No, leave her alone she is happy. Let her be that way. My princess needs a prince, but not a prince charming. She doesn't need me." Jon said.
"Your wrong. She needs you more than oxygen itself. She probably hurting more than anything right now." Colby said.
"Don't lie Colby she is fine and she is having fun. She is smiling and she is loving. I am crying and dying wishing it was me that could make her feel loved again. I'm not even on the edge of sanity anymore. That fire we had has burned out, and until now I've never knew how good it felt to get burned." Jon said.