If Only She Knew (Lesbian stories)

Chapter 3

We finished the bottles of vodka and were both tipsy. "I want crisps. Did you bring crisps?", I asked. "I did!" She reached for her bag and pulled out a bag of crisps. "Great!" I took the bag from her. "Hey! Who said you could have it." She took it back and opened it. I stuck my hand in the bag and grabbed a handful. "Bitch!", she said. I giggled. "Chill, it's just a handful."

"These are great", I said as I put another one in my mouth. "I know right."

I ate my crisps and laid back. Lily did the same.

We faced each other and sighed. "You're like, really pretty", she said. "What? Where did that come from?", I said. I felt my cheeks turn red. "I just.. I don't know. I'm sorry", she said. "No, it's okay", I said smiling.

"Is this it?", I thought to myself. "Is this the moment where everything would turn out the way I had always dreamed of?"

I searched for her hand and held it. She looked down at our hands and looked back up. "Sorry", I said letting go of her hand. She quickly grabbed mine. "Don't be", she said. My heart was racing.

"This IS it", I thought to myself. "Should I go for it?" I took a deep breath.

I let go of her hand and placed mine on her waist. I moved closer and our lips were only inches away from each other. "What are you doing?", she said and giggled. "Just relax", I said. I slowly got closer and gently placed my lips on hers.

I had always been too afraid to do something like this, but this felt right. It felt like she wanted this too.

For a few seconds she went along with it, but then pulled away. "What are you doing?", she asked. "Sorry.. I.." I let go of her and got up. "Wait. Where are you going?", she asked. I didn't even bother to answer her.

I sat by the water when Lily came and sat next to me. "I'm sorry if I said or did something wrong", she said. "It's not you", I said. "Then what is it? Please, talk to me." I sighed. "What do you think it is?", I asked. She shrugged her shoulders. "Do you.. I don't know. Do you have feelings for me?", she asked.

I started getting nervous. "Should I admit it? Should I just tell her it was a joke? Maybe an experiment?", I thought to myself.

"No of course not", I said. "It was just, you said you wanted something like Jake and I. So I wanted to like, try and give you something like that. That's what friends are for right?", I continued. "Are you sure?" I nodded. "We're drunk. I wouldn't do it if I were into you. That would just be weird." She giggled. "Yeah.. Well, thanks for trying to cheer me up."

"I'm sorry if it confused you", I said. She smiled. "It's okay. Come on, I still have some crisps left", she said. I giggled. "Oh you're sharing them with me now?" She nodded. "We're besties. Of course I'm sharing them with you."

She got up and reached out her hand. I took it and she helped me up. She pulled me in for a hug. "We'll always be besties", she said. I smiled. "Yeah, besties."

We walked back to our towels. Lily reached for the bag of crisps and handed it to me. "Eat as much as you want", she said. "Be careful with what you say Lil. I'll eat the entire thing." She laughed. "You better save some for me." I shrugged my shoulders. "Maybe."

All of a sudden, the crisps got snatched from my hands. "Hey, what?!" I looked up and saw Jake. "You didn't even come and share it with me", he said. "It's not even mine. It's Lily's!" He shrugged his shoulders. "Still."

He ran off.

"Asshole", I said. Lily reached into her bag and pulled out a chocolate bar. "Make sure they won't get it", she said. I giggled. "I'll personally kill them if they even think about taking it." We both laughed.