Nightmare

Chapter Thirty-Six

Zacky

"Oh shit Dez" I mumbled looking at a print out of a positive pregnancy test with her name and date of birth stamped across the top.

"Hey daddy" She giggled smiling at me.

I looked threw the weird photos Desiree brought home with her again, avoiding her eyes.

I wanted this didn't I?

I mean I wanted to have a baby with her....right? I just didn't understand how.

Okay I mean I know how, I was there for it, but I mean how? I thought it was a long shot for her to be able to have children. How did it happen so quick? The way the doctor explained it was it would take time, if ever, to happen. I wasn't expecting it this quick.

But how? I mean seriously how? Desiree was so certain she could not have children. Three months after starting the treatments she swore that wouldn't work and she's pregnant.

"Zack?" Dez smiled at me rubbing my arm.

"What?" I blurted out. What did she want from me.

"I'm pregnant" Desiree whispered "Can you believe it? I thought the treatments weren't working. Apparently they worked really well"

"Yeah I see that" I mumbled

"Are you okay?" She asked me

"Yeah," I nodded but no I wasn't. I was really confused. "I gotta head out for a bit."

"Now?" Desiree demanded sounding a little hurt

"Yeah" I nodded, I needed to clear my head. "Yeah, something came up. I have to go. I'll be back"

"You can't stay? I mean aren't you happy?" She asked me.

"Yeah happy sure" I mumbled "I'll be back."

I didn't wait for her to say anything. I didn't kiss her like I normally do when one of us leaves I just walked to my car getting and driving away.

How the fuck is she already pregnant? How is she pregnant at all?

Did she lie to me? Did Rachel and Victoria?

I mean I would expect it from them, of course I would, that's one thing you can depend on those two for: Lies and deception. It was just who they are. But what if they were just lying and Dez went along with it? She was so against doing the treatments. I mean she was all about adoption for some reason instead of trying for her own.

What if she didn't want to have a baby with me? I mean not a biological one. Maybe because she didn't have Jimmy's she wouldn't have mine? I know for a fact she was pregnant with Jimmy's child. Barbra had told me the story from her own point of view. Explaining just how heartbroken Desiree was that Jimmy didn't want her to have his baby.

What if Desiree lied? What if all this time she could actually have kids, but since she couldn't have the one she wanted, Jimmy's baby, she didn't want to have any at all.

Would that mean I would get a phone call to pick her up from a clinic and she had killed my baby growing in her? Because it wasn't Jimmy's? Is that why she was so for adoption? Was it all a lie?

Had Victoria and Rachel given her a way out and I blindly followed her line of deception? Now what? I mean now she's pregnant. What would she do now?

Was she happy? Was she upset it wasn't Jimmy's? I mean I don't even know what the fuck to think.

I thought I wanted this with her. I love her. I know I love her. But I didn't think it would happen so quickly. I mean we've only been together like seven months tops. Now we're going to be parents.  Is she going to expect me to marry her now?