Nightmare

Chapter Fifty-Eight

Zacky

I was scared walking back into the hospital.

Dez had changed since the baby had been born.

She thought she was hiding it I'm sure, but I could tell. There was something wrong. I don't know why she wouldn't talk to me about it. But she wouldn't.

I was sure she wasn't sleeping. She barely held the baby and when she would it was for a few minutes and would hand him back.

Had she changed her mind? About me and the baby?

Did she not want to marry me?

I stood outside her room door a few minutes, with a bag packed for her. Our son some clothes and his carseat.

Most of all in my jeans pocket was her engagement ring.

"Hey she's better today" her nurse smiled emerging from the room next to hers.

"Really?" I asked apprehensively.

"Yes" she smiled "I think she might have post-partum depression."

"Oh god what's that?" I asked scared.

"Becoming a mom is a lot to take it." The nurse shrugged "her hormones are all wonky. She needs a little time. Lots of support and love."

"I can do that" I grinned "loving her is my favorite thing to do"

"Good" the nurse smiled patting my arms "go on in. You will be glad you did."

I nodded and opened the door.

Looking in I was glad I finally opened the door.

Dez was out of her bed. Something I had not seen her do since Jameson was born.

Her hair was brushed and down framing her face. She even had on makeup and had changed clothes.

Best of all she was sitting with our son layer on her chest.

Dez was softly humming to him. Something I had never ever heard her do, rocking slowly back and forth.

I couldn't help but get a little choked up.

God she looked stunning, her soft voice sounded amazing and our son had his eyes wide open staring at his mother intently.

"Now that's a beautiful view" I murmured.

"Why hello" Dez grinned looking up "Look James daddy his here"

"Don't you look gorgeous" I smiled reaching her side kissing her neck "mmmmm you smell delicious too"

"Why thank you" She giggled. "Do you want to hold him?"

"He looks mighty comfortable right where he is" I laughed "But yeah let me have him."

"Okay" Dez smiled placing our son in my arms.

"Okay maybe not" I laughed, because the minute Dez sat back down our son began wailing. I handed him back to Dez.

"Awe little guy" Dez laughed as he stopped crying at her touch.

"Hey I'm gonna call the nurse for a second." I smiled

"Why?" Dezzy asked me frowning.

"I need a moment with you alone." I winked. "Be right back."

I walked out to the nurses station spying Dez's nurse "hey excuse me/"

"Yes?" She smiles looking up

"Would it be a big issue if you could keep the baby for a few?" I asked hopeful

"Absolutely." The nurse grinned.

She followed me back to Dez's room taking Jameson from Dez's arms.

"Okay mommy, has he had a bottle?" The nurse laughed as he began fidgeting from being yanked from his mom.

"About an hour ago" Dez grinned stroking his little face

"Okay" The nurse nodded "well come get him when you're ready"

"Thanks" I smiled as she walked out.

"Okay what's up?" Dez asked me standing up and stretching.

"I love you Desiree" I smiled "you know that right?"

"Yeah" she sighed "I know I've been out of it. You've been so wonderful. I'm so sorry."

"About that" I frowned "what was wrong?"

"Zack," Dez sighed "I'm just scared."

"Of what?" I asked her alarmed

"That I'm not good enough." She whispered.

"Dez" I shook my head grabbing her into my arms "baby you're more than good enough. You're amazing."

"I didn't feel it" Dez sighs into my chest.

"Oh god baby" I kissed the top of her head "you're my whole world now. You make it perfect. You need to always know that. You're everything I need all I want for the rest of my life."

"You really mean that?" Dez questions looking up into my face "that wasn't just words you said because you thought I was dying?"

"No" I exclaim shocked "no. It's what I had been feeling but didn't want to scare you."

"I'm so sorry" she whispers again.

"I got you something." I smile releasing her from my arms.

"What's that?" Dez asks me wiping her face.

"This" I grin dropping to a knee pulling out her ring box

"Oh my god" she gasps her eyes watering again.

"Let's do this the right way?" I laugh

"It was the right way before" she smiles

"Oh yeah with Kat's ring" I shakes my head "don't think so."

"Okay" Dez giggles

"Desiree?" I begin

"Yes Zachary?" She smiles

"Stop" I shake my head smiling grabbing her hand

"Okay" she grins trying to clear her fave of humor

"You've made me beyond happy. Words can not express how happy you make me. Sure you're a pain in the Ass sometimes. But you're my pain in the ass." I laugh "you're beautiful. You're the mother of my child and the mother of my future children. You're who I want to wake up to every morning, and go to sleep with every night. You thrive in my madness and bring calm to my chaotic. When I look at you I see my future. I see my life. My heart. Will you please do me the honor of being my wife?"

"Yes" Dez whispers as tears stream down her face.