Nightmare

Chapter Fifty-Five

Dezzy

I was still in bright light, and I felt oddly empty.

It was so loud in this room, so very loud. There was a baby screaming and above that I could hear my name being calling.

"Desiree? Can you hear me? Desiree sweetie if you can hear me open your eyes please." A female called

I opened my eyes looking around. I was in the hospital still, so the baby crying must be my baby. "My baby?" I croaked

"He's just fine, getting the usual tests done." The woman smiled at me "You gave us a scare sweetheart."

"I'm okay?" I asked attempting to move around but I was still numb

"Yes," She grinned "You've been out for about two hours, but you're fine now. You lost a lot of blood, but we gave you a transfusion, stabilized your pressures"

"But, I'm okay?" I asked.

"Yes sweetie you're fine now." She smiled again

"My baby?" I asked as I watched some nurses push a cart out, with what I was positive my baby.

"He's perfectly fine" The nurse winked "He's a little small, he's only five pound four ounces and about sixteen inches long but he's fine. They want to go put him on a monitor and in the incubator for a little while."

"Where's Zack?" I demanded

"Your husband?" She questioned

"No, my boyfriend" I snapped, "he should be with me, or our baby"

"I can go find him" She smiled at me again "but right now we have to get you cleaned up and transferred to your room."

"I want Zack." I snapped again "I want him right now."

"Listen, sweetie he doesn't need to see you right now. I will send someone to let him know you're awake and responsive."

"No you listen to me" I frowned "What's your name?"

"I'm Stacy" She grinned "I'll be with you the rest of the night, and I promise you before the night is over you will be with Zack, or he will be with you."

"Where is she?" I heard Kat yelling and then the door banged open.

"Kat" I grinned seeing her peek in, she caught my eye and smiled

"Hey girl" Kat grinned walking in to me. "You scared the shit out of us."

"Ma'am you can't be in here" Stacy the nurse snapped

"I'm a nurse" Kat huffed turning back to me "Are you okay?"

"I think so." I sighed "Do you know what happened?"

"Where's her chart?" Kat demanded of Stacy "I want to see it now"

"Here" Stacy sighed rolling her eyes handing her a clipboard.

I watched as Kat scanned the papers quickly "Well Dez, you're kind of lucky to be alive" Kat sighed

"What?" I asked confused "Why? What the hell happened?"

"I was getting there" Stacy sighed

"Not fast enough" I snapped looking back at Kat "Well?"

"Okay so it says here your placenta separated from the uterine wall" Kat sighed

"Well that doesn't sound good." I rolled my eyes "What else?"

"You began to dilate" Kat snapped at me "So that tore the scar tissue, topped with the placenta you began to bleed out. Your blood pressure fell because you lost a ton of blood and passed out."

"That must've been when I saw Jimmy" I sighed

"Wait what did you say?" Kat asks me bewildered "You saw who?"

"Jimmy" I mumbled feeling a little embarrassed

"Really?" Kat whispered

"Who's Jimmy?" Stacy asked looking confused

"Her dead boyfriend" Kat snapped "You really saw him?"

"Wait a second" Stacy muttered "I thought your boyfriend is in the waiting room Zack?"

"Keep up lady" Kat mumbled "Jimmy is dead. Zack is her baby's father and current boyfriend. Dez why did you see Jimmy?"

"If you're a nurse you should know that people see deceased dead loved ones when they're close to death all of the time." Stacy snapped

"Don't you have a job you're supposed to be doing?" Kat asked my nurse

"I did" Stacy rolled her eyes "Then you came in."

"Anyways" Kat muttered shaking her head looking back at me "So what did he say?"

"Basically that he knew me and Zack would get together, he wasn't mad, he knew a long time ago if we met it would happen" I sighed shaking my own head "It was weird, he told me I was half dead, but that I could chose to come back"

"Well I guess you chose to come back" Kat smiled "Then what?"

"That he misses everyone, for me to take care of them" I whispered "And that it was okay to be with Zack, to marry him, have more kids. Can I have more kids?"

"Yes, you're fine" Stacy smiled a little smugly cutting off Kat "You will just have to have a scheduled c-section."

"Oh" I nodded "Not so bad, I didn't even feel it. I don't even remember it"

"That's not even funny" Kat scolded me shaking her head. "Have you seen the baby?"

"No" I whispered looking down "But I did hear him. Kid has some lungs."

"Why didn't she see the baby?" Kat demanded of Stacy

"The baby's temperature was a little low he needed to warm up." Stacy snapped "The pediatrician on call also wanted to check his lungs and other internal organs to make sure he was developed enough so the baby could be with his mother and not in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit."

"Oh" Kat mumbled "and his measurements?"

"Actually fairly normal even for a premature baby" Stacy smiled "The baby boy is about five pounds four ounces and sixteen inches long."

"Okay" Kat smiled "That's actually really good for a premie Dez"

"If you say so" I shrugged "Is Zack okay?"

"Honestly?" Kat asked me grimacing

"No Kat" I rolled my eyes "Lie to me"

"Dez he's a mess." Kat mumbled "I've never seen him so upset. I told him I was coming to find out what's going on."

"He was upset with me before all of this happened" I whispered "I should have told him."

"Yeah about that" Kat snapped at me "Yes you should have. If not him then at least me. What the hell Dez, at least one of us could have been prepared for this. I would have came to the hospital with you."

"I feel bad about it" I shrugged

"You feel bad?" Kat asked me "Don't say that shit to him okay."

"I won't" I smiled "But it's true. I'm sorry I should've said something."

"Yeah" Kat smiled "I'm going to go tell him, and he will probably come in."

"He better" I smiled as Kat walked out.