Nightmare

Chapter Forty-Nine

Dez

"Are you okay?" Zack asked me as I tried to catch my breath

"I'm fantastic" I breathed grinning

"Are you sure? I didn't hurt you did I ask?" Zack asked me grabbing my arm

"Fuck no you didn't hurt me" I laughed "Zack I am not made of porcelain."

"But I mean I don't want to hurt you" He mumbled

"Like I've been telling you for the past two hours" I laughed "you didn't hurt me. If you did I would tell you when it happened. That was great. A little soft but great."

"Babe" Zack sighed "I am not going to jack hammer you are you insane"

I busted out laughing. I couldn't help it. "Jack hammer?"

"Power fuck what ever" Zack smiled kissing my cheek.

"Is that has been what's wrong with you?" I asked him

"Yeah" He sighed "I was afraid I was going to hurt you. Why what did you think?"

"I thought you didn't find me attractive anymore" I mumbled

"What?" Zack gasped "Why?"

"Well I'm getting big" I shrugged "I wouldn't want to fuck a girl with a big pregnant belly either."

"You failed to mention the nice tits" Zack laughed kissing the top of one of my exposed breast. "Or the fantastic ass"

"I've always had an ass" I laughed "Just not the tits to match"

"Yeah but now they're both bigger and yeah" Zack laughed "They're nice. It was hard to tell you no."

"Really I couldn't tell" I snapped "You did it so well."

"Dez I kept seeing you in pain in my head" Zack mumbled a little embarrassed "It wasn't good okay"

"What changed your mind?" I asked

"I talked to Kat." He smiled at me

"What?" I exclaimed "Oh god you talked to Kat? I kept telling you it was okay"

"Yeah but you have been so ready to jump my bones I wasn't sure I could trust you." Zack laughed "I figured you would say whatever it took"

"Well, yeah" I laughed

"Are you happy?" Zack asked me suddenly

"Happy?" I asked him.

"Yeah, happy" He sighed "With life."

"Oh." I whispered shocked "Yeah. I am happy. I've never been this happy before."

"Really?" He asked me

"Really." I smiled laying my head on his chest.

"Do you love me?" He asked me "I mean really really love me?"

"Zack" I whispered sitting up a little to look him in his eyes "I've never in my lifetime loved someone like I love you. I didn't think it was possible to love someone as I do you."

"Are you sure?" He questioned looking off into space.

"Listen to me," I cried grabbing his face in my hands and scooting on to his lap "These are not just words I am saying to placate you. I am saying this because I trust you. Because I trust our love. Nothing else on this planet matters to me. I love you more than I could explain. No one, nothing compares to you. Not even how I thought I loved Jimmy."