Nightmare

Chapter Thirty-Three

Dezzy

I couldn't stand to look at Zack. I could feel the anger radiating off of him. I wanted to say something, anything but what? I mean what could I say? Everything Rachel had said was absolutely there was no sense in denying it. Honestly what could I say to make things sound any better? Nothing is what I could say. It was probably over between Zack and I. This was probably just all way too much.

I couldn't even blame him. Who really could? I'm sure it was easier to look past me being Jimmy's ex but knowing that I terminated a pregnancy, not only that, but if Zack wanted to be with me for the long haul there would be no children for us. My body just wasn't capable. Zack was obviously the type who would want children. He just seemed like it. Those types were always the ones to get the angriest when they found out someone had an abortion.

There was no sense in sitting in this tent next to him anymore. Why wait to hear him say the words I didn't want to hear. Why sit there counting the seconds ticking away in silence until he looked at me and said get out of my sight. It would be inevitable. I knew it. So why wait for it? Why torture myself? Why continue to evade everyone's eyes.

I rose from my seat walking out the same path that Matt came from. I needed to go find Kat. I wasn't Victoria and Rachel's only target. Kat's special day was ruined because of them and now she was probably alone, worried Matt would leave her too. Knowing Kat she was probably a crying mess and didn't need to be alone.

After all the two demonic twins exposed that she had also lost a child. Apparently Matt didn't know about. I wondered how long ago it had happened and why she didn't tell anyone. Even better how on earth Victoria knew about it. All that really didn't matter at this point, what did matter was how Kat was feeling now. She had to be hurting right now, and seeing as she was my only friend she needed me as much as I needed her.

"Kat" I half smiled finding her sitting on a cliff looking into the ocean.

She opened an arm to me wiping a tear from her face, "Dez"

"Are you okay?" I asked knowing all too well the answer was probably no.

"He's gonna leave me for good this time" Kat whispered shaking her head sadly "I should have told him. Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. It's something that I accepted a long, long time ago." I shrugged. It was true. I made a choice all those years ago and I had to live with it.  There was no point mourning the loss anymore. I had chosen my path, and despite today it hadn't been so bad.

"Is Zack pissed?" She asked me squeezing my shoulder

"I would imagine so" I sighed "All he said was fucking great before I walked away"

"What about Matt did he say anything?" Kat inquired as new tears trickled down her face.

"Actually no" I answered pondering why he hadn't.

"That's a little odd" Kat sighed

"Well he and Zack shared a look so god only knows what that means" I muttered shrugging a little "I didn't wait to find out either. I had to get out of there."

"Yeah I can't say as I blame you" She half laughed tucking a stray hair behind my ear "I had to escape too"

"And here we are" I giggled

"Yes" Kat sighed looking around "Here we are heart broken on the edge of a cliff."

I took in the scenery and realized the irony. This wouldn't look good "Yeah this isn't the best of places is it?" I laughed