hello anyone who is reading this! how are you? are you doing okay today? taking good care of yourself? i hope so. lemme just mention that you also look fan-fucking-tastic today if anyone hasn't said it yet. i think that everyone should be told that everyday.
alrighty, you're probably wondering what the heck this new creation is. well, this book/diary/journal thing is just that, it's a book/diary/journal! it isn't a proper book, it's personal writing.
imma be completely honest here.
i'm too fucking lazy to just write in a journal. i have one, i LITERALLY BOUGHT ONE because i wanted to because my mind is so fucking full of shit i need to get out but since february i've injured my wrist and writing hurts. so with school (aka a ton of writing) and my love for drawing, my wrist boutta fall off. so typing it is!
basically i want this book to be a conversation between me and you. i wanna hear if anyone relates to me. i'm gonna explain a lot about myself and what's going on because i have no one to tell it to. i wanna know if i'm not alone in my shitty life i'm experiencing. i'm also here to offer advice to anyone, i've always been told i'm overly wise for my age and i really am once you hear me out/hear how i talk. i sound like a parent and im literally 16.
do i hate that?
yes.
can i help it?
no. it's my personality.
but i wanna hear you guys in this! i wanna have full on convos, i wanna share! this is a safe place. i won't judge you if you don't judge me.
every once in a while i'll post advice chapters where i'll ask you guys to either private message me or just comment on the chapter and i'll try and help you guys out. would you like that? i feel it's only fair considering i'm here kinda asking you to hear me out and help me out.
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anyway, i'm gonna tell you all a little about me which will probably explain a lot about why i'm doing this.
comment if you relate with anything! i wanna learn about you!
name: you can call me Lexia, it's what my name was supposed to be when i was born, and my actual name is just a nickname for that. also, if it ain't obvious, i'm a girl lol
age: nearly 16 :) im in year 10 (10th grade)
friends: mainly just one. she's my internet bestest friend in the whole wide world. she unfortunately lives in another country, but we talk everyday. she and i are literally the same and i love her like a sister. she's like the main person i've got, and why i prefer internet friends tbh
i have someone else (kinda) who actually lives in the same town as me and goes to the same school (and is literally my neighbor too) and we're kinda like siblings (he's a boy so he's like my older bro). i love him like a brother but we don't talk as much as we used to because his girlfriend is jelly and hates my ass so that makes me sad
there's other people i'm acquaintances with or at least friendly with, but either we don't really talk to each other as much/i am just so awkward with them/i also somehow ruin it by being my idiot lame self so FUCK YEAH I HATE MYSELF
introvert/extrovert: (lmao can you tell already??) introvert AF WHERE MY FELLOW PEEPS AT??
love life: haHAHA wowowowow that's gonna be a major topic in here bc mines very nonexistent and always has been this way but can also be very dramatic and sad at times
nationality: i'm American, born and raised here, but i'm Mexican, Greek, and Arabic :)
likes:
-i'm a hardcore 1D stan (and a larrie aye), and music is my life.
-i love video games so much! my favorite is GTA, i just got the Sims 4, and i play ps4 mainly. (if you game, what do you play?)
-love me some TVD, The Originals, Grey's Anatomy, LOST, and Friends (yoo follow me on IG (shameless promo) @/friendstv.show) (jk don't if you don't wanna lmao).
-i'm also a youtuber freak. i love the british gang (Joe & Zoë Sugg, Alfie Deyes, Jack & Conor, Caspar Lee, Oli White, etc), i love Jenna Marbles and Julien Solomita, I love Liza Koshy and David Dobrik, and i love watching gamers (very much Kevin Edwards Jr and Joe Sugg bc they're hilarious)
-i love specifically Chingyonce and her books because she makes me smile all the time with her books and also cry and wanna jump in front of a train but hey, if my mind is taken away from reality, i don't care how it's done.
-i also like being alone/having alone time, drawing is a passion of mine (i'll show you guys drawings sometimes), or just plainly staying home.
dislikes:
-school. HATE IT. i have like 0% friends there (bc i can't really hang with my guy friend soooo) and i'm super awkward and can barely talk to others so yay.
-i hate big crowds (except for concerts and big cities, those are the best types of crowds), and i hate super loud/obnoxious things. i dislike being unproductive and lazy. i don't really like constantly hanging out with people.
other:
-i really want to become a youtuber, like i love video editing and vlogging sounds so amazing and i wish i knew all the youtubers i liked... like idk it just seems really fun. i'm an introvert af but i wanna share my life with the internet like i am now. it makes sense, i know.
-i'm also a huge supporter of the LGBTQ+ community, not a member, but i support it so much.
-also i cuss, so expect kinda a lot of it haha
-also i got anxiety problems, and major trust issues lol
well, that's enough for now, yeah? you'll get a lot more within the entries.
i really hope you guys comment and tell me about yourselves! tell me your names, tell me where you're from, tell me everything! answer the same things i just answered about myself above! i'm pretty much trying to make friends here, that my main goal, so comment please! i wanna know about you, and learn more as i expand this book diary thingy.
i don't care about votes as much here as i do comments, but vote if you wanna! show some more love!
do you guys like this, like is it a good idea for me to do this? i am doing it kinda for myself to make some friends and just to let go of what i'm holding inside because i really need to release some of this anxiety and stress. it's always good to tell someone is what you're told, and that's what i'm trying to do.
i'll try and write as much as i can in this, idk how frequent entries will be since i'm busy with school (but bless up for christmas break rn) (also merry christmas/happy holidays!! lol good job Lex on forgetting to say the obvious)
see you guys soon with an entry!
all the love x
-Lexia
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