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prom 2k17

okay no

never again

not worth any of the money spent on the dress, the makeup i got done, the shoes, the jewelry, none of it.

so i don't get too triggered, i'll begin with the highlights of my night i suppose.

1. my date.

my date and i are somewhat friends to begin with. he's friends with the group of people who are really fake so he and i don't talk much (well, i don't talk at all at school and won't be especially after this night). but he was SUCH a gentleman omg. he was so sweet opening the car door for me, got me a beautiful corsage, and always wanted me to feel comfortable because i think he kinds understood how i was feeling about it and that i didn't really have people so he was so nice. he was like the main nice person there to me last night.

2. the games.

at my prom they did this thing where they had fake gambling for 2 hours. for every $250 you won, you got a ticket that would be put into a bucket and be chosen for like soooo many different prizes you could win.

we (me and my date) hung out at this blackjack tables and there were these two cute old men dealing the cards and chips. THEY WERE SO FUNNY AND SWEET.

they were the most generous people. like they would deal a card and the point of the game is to get the cards you have to add up to 21, so when they'd deal your next card and you have to decide if you want it before you get to see what card it is, they'd say "oh yes you want this card, honey." or "you do not want this one". they dealt out so much money to us, they wanted us to win prizes and i thank them for making my night fun because THE NEXT HIGHLIGHT WAS WINNING $30 ITUNES CARDS YESSSSS I CAN BUY SO MUCH NOW I AM READY FOR MY 1D BOYS TO SPIT OUT THAT NEW MATERIAL

3. a boy named Hayden.

hayden is a really eccentric boy in my class who is the SWEETEST. he has a disorder that impairs his social skills and makes him unsure how to act in social situations. he was invited in my "friend group" to eat dinner with us and to hang with us at the prom (that whole fucking group ditched me btw but we'll get more into that) and that group didn't hang out with him either, plus he didn't have a date, so i wanted him to feel included.

they had a photo booth at this prom too, so i asked him if he wanted to take pictures and i'm pretty sure i made his night. he was laughing so much and he just loved it and i was so glad to see him happy and i kinda watched over him on the side all night, wanting to see he was doing okay.

4. i did hear a one direction song.

one of the nice guys in my class who i'm kinda friends with, (well, we were closer but stuff happens but i'd like to be better friends with him again, since he knows me so well) he was like "oh they should play 1d [since it would get me turnt]" and i was like "yeah omg idk if requesting songs is allowed" like i kinda thought he was just joking but he asked me which song i'd want and i didn't know what to say because how can one pick such a hard question but i said "perfect" because that song is still a bop. a short while after my date and i were playing blackjack, and they boy comes up to me and said he requested it and i felt really happy because i didn't think he was actually going to! and it played and it was very sweet.

well, that was the highlights.

here's the shit.

we go to dinner with the group i'm associated with and like they do every day at lunch, they don't really speak to me for shit. i spent that dinner time mostly talking to my date and that boy hayden since we were all sitting closer to each other. of course i go on my phone a little because no one is talking then all of an sudden the girl next to me is like "okay everyone's phones in the middle" and BITCH I GOT TRUST ISSUES YOU ALL ARE MESSING AROUND WITH YOUR DRINKS YOURE GONNA SPILL ON MY FUCKIHG PHONE LIKE NO I HAVE A RIGHT TO MY PHONE. DID YOU BUY IT? NO I THINK TF NOT