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WHAT THE ACTUAL F***

GUYS SOMETHING JUST FUCKING HAPPENED LIKE FASTEN YO SEATBELTS FAM WE BOUTTA TAKE A RIDE BC I HAVE MAJOR BREAKING NEWS

SO LET ME TELL THE BEGINNING OF THE STORY.

okay, yesterday was that homecoming game (it's for basketball, not like other schools who do it for american football). i didn't go, i'll tell you that! i just felt too exhausted to have to deal with people and i had such a nicer relaxed night at my house... for the most part.

so yesterday at school, for homecoming, my school had a pep rally, and that's just like where they have a ceremony type thing and get all the students in the gym and make us try and get "school spirit" or whatever, especially before the homecoming game that was to come yesterday later in the evening. the pep rally took place the last hour of school, and i really didn't care to go to it. i've had a migraine for a few days straight and i didn't wanna be in a loud gym where i'd be sitting squished on the bleachers or something.

another thing that went on at the pep rally was that they were announcing the nominees (3 girls and 3 guys from each grade/year) for the class favorites. i've always thought that competition was stupid AF. like it's literally a popularity contest, where all the students in your class vote for who they want nominated and me and a few others could care less while obviously the people who always get nominated care just a bit more. the ceremony where they pick the the actual class favorites takes place next Wednesday. like out of the three guys and three girls, one of each gets pick as the actual favorite guy and favorite girl, and all the nominees have to dress up and everyone attends the ceremony that day even parents and it's SO DUMB.

so i figured, "eh i can ask my mom to pick me up before the ceremony, i'll get out an hour early. i'm not gonna miss anything, and it's not like i'll get nominated because it's always the same people."

but with my fucking luck.

i got nominated????

HOW DO I, A GIRL WHO DOESNT SPEAK AT SCHOOL, WHO DOESNT HAVE LIKE ANY FRIENDS,  GET NOMINATED AS ONE OF THE CHOICES FOR CLASS FAVORITES??

ITS FUNNY OKAY SO THAT MEANS I MISSED THE PEP RALLY WHERE THEY ANNOUNCED MY NAME ALONG WITH OTHERS AND I WASNT EVEN THERE WHEN THEY DID IT HAAHHA I SKIPPED OUT EARLY JUST TO SHOP AND GET STARBUCKS WITH MY MOM BBAHAH WHO KNOWS IF THEY CALLED ME UP OR SOMETHING AND I DIDNT EVEN GO OML

SO WANNA KNOW HOW I FIND OUT??

SO THAT GUY I TALKED ABOUT IN MY LOVE-LIFE CHAPTER THE ONE I NEARLY DATED HIT ME UP ASKING ME IF I WAS GOING TO HOMECOMING (not as his date lol he had one) AND I SAID NO AND ASKED HOW THE PEP RALLY WAS AND HE WAS LIKE "oh yeah it was good you got nominated for favorites btw" and i was like "BITCH YOURE JOKING THERES NO WAY" because literally what the fuck and i thought he was joking so i asked my guy friend and i asked that girl who is my friend and both answered late but they said it was true! and my mom even got an email saying i got nominated.

WHAT THE FUCK

i'm gonna be honest that this has me stressed and my anxiety kicked in so quick i've been on edge since last night because this means i have to dress up really nice and have the attention on me and walk up on the stage as they call my name and PEOPLE WILL BE WATCHING ME I DONT WANT IT LIKE I LEGIT STILL COULD CARE LESS ABOUT THIS NO MATTER IF IM INVOLVED

LIKE I KNOW I MIGHTVE GOTTEN ONE OF THREE HIGHEST NUMBER OF VOTES SINCE IM NOMINATED BUT LIKE THERES NO WAY I WON WHICH IM FINE WITH SO WHY DONT YOU JUST HAVE THE ACTUAL WINNER GO AND DO THAT SHIT LIKE IDGAF ABOUT THIS

HELP ME GUYS IM SO ANXIOUS RN THINKING ABOUT IT

ILL KEEP YOU POSTED AND TELL YOU IF I WIN BUT I STILL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I EVEN GOT NOMINATED IM NOT EVEN COOL AND I LOOK LIKE TRASH

THIS WAS KIND OF A RANDOM "I NEED TO TELL SOMEONE" ENTRY BUT DONT WORRY IM HAVING A REAL DEEP ENTRY SOON OK BYE