a teen's journal | rants

AYYEEEE LMAO

hey friends! it's been like ages since i've updated because i've been so SO dang busy with school like i have homework in like every subject and i'm dying but i wanted to update this as a small update on my life and the next entry is gonna be more of a discussion entry which i'm excited to write because i chose an interesting topic

so! if you read my last chapter, i told you guys there was this class favorites ceremony where they picked the top 3 most voted guys and girls from each grade and made us all get dressed up and fancy and then this past wednesday at school they chose the guy and girl who received the most votes. they call it "royalty" at my school and it's so fucking dumb😂 i told you guys how i got nominated in the top three. well..

lmao i won😂😂

here's the thing i actually found out the night before that i won, like it's a long story but like my mom is friends with the teacher in charge and that teacher loves me so much she's so sweet she's kinda elderly and she's just the nicest person and so my mom texted her since my mom wanted to go to the ceremony but she had to work around like the time of the middle of the ceremony and so the nice teacher was like "oh i'll talk fast and present the people for you!" and my mom thanked her and then the teacher said "do you get what i'm saying?" which my mom asked me what i thought she meant by that and i was like "hah maybe i won" and then MY MOM HID HER PHONE FROM ME AND KEPT TEXTING THE TEACHER SO I KNEW I MUST HAVE WON LMAO AND WHEN MY NAME GOT CALLED AT THE CEREMONY I WAS LIKE LMAOOOOO

like i don't care at all about it. like it's a title, you don't win anything besides one more picture in the yearbook and honestly, idk if this makes sense but just because i got the most votes doesn't make me feel any different than before. like i don't feel popular still, i still have like 2 friends, like it still doesn't matter to me like it didn't before. and people like calling me "Ms. Popular" and shit like no i'm not really, like there's no need. i appreciate whoever voted for me, like maybe just being quiet but polite and avoiding the dramatic people and not being fake is what really it takes to have people respect you. that's all i got out of that.

but i told you all i'd keep you updated on that so here that is!

another thingy!

okay this one is funny. remember that dude i told y'all how i almost dated and still had baby feelings for, etc.? well GOODBYE BABY FEELS HAHA I SURPASSED THAT SHIT THIS WEEK AND IT FEELS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

LIKE IM SO FUCKING GLAD LIKE I WILL TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED

so i'm sitting in my free period with those two girls who are sorta my friends (that boy went after them two after he was after me so they know him kinda) and i found out that he for a while has been sending/receiving them nasty ass pics (aka nudes) from a girl younger than us! she's in the grade below and i always thought she was kinda like nasty😂

when i heard that i laughed so hard because i had a feeling like deep down that he was doing that and my opinion on sending nasty pictures is that it's just gross. like EW. whY??

what's your opinion? weird question i know but like i just would never do it like i don't mean to slut shame or something like that's not what i'm doing but i'm just saying that personally i think it's gross and when i've been asked before (it even sickens me that some idiots have fucking asked me) i'm like no! fuck off! i have respect for myself so just fuck off.

SO, right then and there i was like HAHA BOI BYE BECAUSE THATS JUST GROSS LIKE SHES YOUNGER THAN YOU YA NASTY

AND SO YESTERDAY NIGHT IT WAS SO WEIRD LIKE HE AND I WERE HAVING A LONG CHAT ABOUT SCHOOL AND MUSIC WE LIKE AND I WAS LIKE NOO BECAUSE HE STARTED THE WHOLE CONVO WHEN HE SENT ME A MEME. LEMME SEE IF I CAN GET THE PICTURE OF IT IN HERE ONE SEC