"People always ask me, "Why are you so quiet?" I don't know. I'll never know. I've always been so quiet, and whenever I speak, I'm known to have a hushed voice. If I think that it's okay to talk, then I won't ever stop, but if I simply don't feel li...
so no one told me high school was gonna be this way...*lonely clap clap clap clap*
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what up tv show reference?👌🏼👌🏼
on topic here, what the hell is up with people being so weird?? why has making/having friends become such a difficult thing? in theory it doesn't sound hard, but then it's so freaking confusing and crappy, especially what's happened with me the last few months with it.
like honestly friendship is become such a strange thing, like it's become as fucked up as relationships seem to me which is not a good thing because if i'm like done with relationships and shit, i can't just throw away friendships because then i will be a literal antisocial person
but it's not my fault that they're so CONFUSING!! THATS THE THING!
so! who's up for story time??
back in 2015 when i was all really depressed and stuff (mentioned this before but now i'm going into detail), this group of girls invited me in when i had no friends and i was quite thankful, like it was them three girls and then two or so guys who were also in their group of friends and the guys i'm still kinda friends with, like one of them is this boy who i only talk about school stuff with since he's really smart and all about that school life, and the other is my guy friend, actually.
i'm gonna call that guy friend E. so you guys don't get confused and so i don't get confused writing it.
anyway so when i joined that group i was with mainly the girls, right? well, two of those girls are the fake ones i mention multiple times and i just always got this vibe that they seriously didn't like me. the other girl in the group was sort of like a third wheel in their friendship and in my opinion still is, so that girl and i got closer and the group sort of became them two, and us two.
she and i were great friends, she was sorta mature, a nice girl, funny, pretty, and we got on real well and had the same opinions and we both knew those girls were their own pair as were we. we were friends during summer 2k16 where my shit got rough with the whole guy situation (she actually was the girl who liked the guy i almost dated but was chill with me liking him, it's a whole thing). except there is one thing about her, and about a lot of people i guess that we were totally different on. she LOVES the drama, and she loves people being in relationships when i don't give a tiny rats ass (another Friends reference oh snap).
like celebrity drama/one direction stunts and shit, that stuff i like. i LOVE IT. it's all i think about these days, but with people at school. IDGAF. sorry lmao. like the 1D stuff is really and quite actually interesting, but this typical high school idiocy is exactly that, idiocy.
it was the only aspect of the friendship that became really hard to bear sometimes. like always she had gossip, always there was some big drama she had to tell me about. (and the thing is, she made it always seem more dramatic than it was so like, i don't care!) it's other people's lives who are going out and constantly making these problems for themselves and i could care less to hear the stupid shit they do. like i'm just trying to get on with my own life here. it might be interesting to you, but i got my own shit to worry about, not someone else's shit, especially someone else who doesn't care about me. like i just could care less! sorry not sorry! i don't mean to be rude, i just have so many other pressing matters than all the high school drama. if it doesn't affect me, i don't care who's dating who, or who is now texting who.
