Sweetest Whatever

Chapter 14: Free Falling

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Chapter 14:

Megan Dalton

This day, I'll be going to school by myself. I told Matt that I miss driving my Audi and so he agreed that he won't fetch me and go to school together every morning for a week.

Everything is the same as ever except for two things. One is that I, Megan Dalton, has officially fallen for the annoyance. The way I say "I love you" to him now is different. It's not an act, it's real. Pure intentions by me. The last and second one is that guilt is eating me alive, like I'm being tortured to my death. It's so intimidating to be near him and saying things that express endearment knowing that this started with a lie and that you were never completely honest with your partner. Yep, pretty much sums it up.

Because my period is happening, I am wearing black skinny jeans, a grey muscle tee, a jean vest and my hidden wedges sneakers. My bag is seated shotgun on my car and I am driving to Winscosten High.

I'm so confused now. I posted in my blog about telling him or not but... I don't want this to end. He's so sweet to me. He's the best thing that happened since Roy.

A lot of my followers voted yes but then again, I'm scared shitless. I know I'm going to fuck him over. I know I'm going to hurt him so bad. What I fear is that he'll never be the Matt I knew. He might change... Like I did. From a happy go lucky girl I turned to a cold one just because of one guy who was capable of tearing me to shreds.

I shake my head and try not to think about the adverse effects of me telling Roy about all of these. I just need to focus on the road for now.

I park my car beside somebody's yellow mini cooper. Gosh, this was my dream car before I purchased the Audi. I get out of my car and stride my way to the main building of WH. I've got Chemistry as the first subject so I need to drop by my locker and get my Chemistry book.

The thing about pain is that it could happen to anyone, anywhere and anytime. I'm scared of what would happen if I tell him. Will he still forgive me? Will he still be there for me? But what I really fear that he'll say no to this question:

Will he still love me like he used to and trust me like he used to?

I am really blurting out the lyrics of Like We Used To by A Rocket to the Moon.

I type in my locker combination and then pick out my book from the book rack. I retouched my mascara after that.

"Megan!" Somebody called out, which made me flinch and the mascara I was applying a while ago went towards my crease. Great.

"Crap." I curse, trying to erase the black mascara remains on my lid. The one who called me-- Macey, was already at my side. If I have the guts now, I'd probably yell at her but then shyness took over me so I just kept calm. Relax, Meg.

"Woops, sorry Meg. I didn't mean to! I just... It's just that our project's deadline will be on Thursday and Mrs. Siegel would probably go and yell at us if we didn't pass it sooner or later." Macey Williams babbled out and I had to keep up with what she's saying. Like seriously, my own brother loves this girl? What's with her that he's so head over heels over Mace? But yeah, what can I do if they love each other? I'm just Ethan's sister.

"Okay, I'll try and do it later after school. Just relax, Mace. She won't harm you. Mrs. Siegel just scolds us when we do something wrong so that's just it. I'll make sure that I will type it correctly this time." I assure her and she sighs in relief.

"Thank you, Meg!" She hugs me in which I was shocked with.

"Sure. Anything for you, Mace." I smile and return the hug.