Sweetest Whatever

Chapter 31: You

{Inspired by: The Only Reason by 5 Seconds of Summer}

Chapter 31: You

Megan Dalton

"Asher?" A voice called, reclaiming me from reverie. With tears about to fall from my eyes, I look at who it was. Val.

"Huh?"I mumbled, and the tears in my eyes finally streamed down my face. I can't do it anymore. It's him. It's really him. I can't and don't feel anything besides regret. It's all coming back to me, biting me on my bum. I want to escape this world and live where the past wouldn't haunt me. But the past... it keeps meeting me in the present. Why?

"What's wrong?" V sat down beside me. I can smell his aftershave from here. as silent tears fell, my barricade also collapsed, undoing all the stitches. Pain, pain everywhere. I find it hard to breathe now, knowing he's just meters away from me and he's sick and here I am-I can't even do anything. I surrender from all this shenanigans I managed to tangle myself into.

"It's him... I saw him... He's here." I said through sobs. When I close my eyes and try to sleep, I fall apart and find it hard to breathe. He's the only reason. How am I going to fix myself when I know I can't even fix the man who is broken because I broke him?

Life is full of circumstances.

Why did he have to go back where I'm on the final stage of moving on? Why Matt? Why?

"Who?" V held my hand and caressed it. I've been trying to forget you. I've been trying to deny that love for you. I've been trying to be lost in a world unknown to me but fuck it, Matt, my heart says it's still you!

It's not Val... It's... you.

"Matt... Matt Hendricks..." I stated. I finally said his full name out loud after so many months. How are we gonna undo all the pain now? There's too much pain to unknot and I don't know where to start. I just can't handle it now. My heart wants to give up but no, I will never give up.

But I want to give up now. Everything's broken. It's too late to bring us back to life.

I saw a hint of surprise in his face but he immediately covered it up with a sigh. He hugged me. "I have a confession to make." Six words are all it takes to cause a mini heart attack, literally. I just kept silent. "I... I came from Winscosten too but I never had you in my classes. I was best friends with Matt. In sophomore year, we fought and my parents decided we should move in California so that's why you never met me. I never had contact with him... Until last year.

"We slightly communicated last year. But don't worry; he doesn't know you're with me. I... I'm sorry I lied... But I love you, Meg. I really do. And it hurts me that you're like this because of him. I knew from the very first day that you're broken and unable to move on so I took the risk. Aki told me your situation. Please don't be mad at us. I'm so sorry." V kept hugging me. I didn't budge. I was too numb to function.

I heard V sigh and he left me. What's he up to? Shortly after, he came back, holding his phone. "Hello, guys, it's Val. Please come to our room. Asher needs you."

I just sat there on the floor, not minding if it's dirty. I'm not okay. Will I even be okay?

The door opened and my other four friends entered the room. When they saw me, they kneeled on the floor and comforted me. "Are you okay?" Was the first three words that left Gen's mouth. I didn't respond. Too numb... Too numb...

V told them what happened. Aki immediately hugged me. "Bestie, I'm so sorry. So sorry." She held my hand.

"Do you wanna visit him?" Daniel asked. I looked at him and for the first time, he was serious in this-no evidence of pranks and jokes-all real.