Attraction | V.N Y.K [Book 1] ✔️

Chapter 21

"V-viktor?" I groan, stretching out my arms a little from our nap. I open my eyes slightly to see no sign of him and confusion flashes over my body.

Where is he?

"Viktor?" I call a little louder. No response.

I start to get a little worried, so I stand up and walk off the couch to investigate. I walk into the kitchen to see him sitting at the table, his head in his hands and a stern yet nervous expression on his face. He doesn't notice me as I walk up behind him, so I rest my hands on his shoulders and begin to give him a massage.

"Yuri..?" He says, lifting his head from his hands and looking back at me. A small smile falls on his face before he gently closes his eyes and looks away, putting his head back in his hands.

"Are you okay?" I whisper. He sighs a little but then plays it off with a chuckle.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine." He says, standing up. I take my hands off of his shoulders and he turns around, hugging me to his body.

"Yuri?" He asks.

"Yes?" I respond.

"You'd never leave me, right?"

Shock takes over my body at his question but I nod my head. "Never. Why?" I ask.

"No reason."

I sigh against his chest and we stand there for a few minutes before I pull away, walking over to the fridge.

"It's like 5:30. What do you want to eat?" I ask.

"Just make noodles or something. I don't know." He says, laughing. I laugh and pull out extra noodles.

"You just want noodles?"

"Yeah. Sounds good to me." He responds. I chuckle but pull out regular noodles, starting to get everything ready to make them.

"Do you know where exactly my parents went?" I ask him. I glance back at him to see him shaking his head.

"No, but I overheard them talking about something last night and I think they're staying overnight." He responds. I feel my face heat up at the thought of being left alone in the house overnight with Viktor.. And what exactly we might do..

"Yuri," Viktor whispers into my ear as he walks up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist. "We won't do anything, okay?"

I lean back into his hold and sigh.

"Even if I said I wanted to..?"

He goes silent for a couple seconds before he exhales a large breath.

"It's.. I.. Let's not." He responds. I feel hurt overwhelm me by his words. What? He doesn't want to? How are we supposed to be a couple if we can't do things like that?

But with all those thoughts aside, I just said, "Okay."

"Yuri, its not that I don't-"

"No, really. It's okay. If you don't want to, that's completely respectable. I fully understand. We did just get together, after all."

I say that, but deep down inside, I'm pretty hurt. Did he lie to me earlier? Saying my body was perfect for him but really he doesn't want to do anything to it?

But he told me he'd never lie to me. So then what's the reason?

It might just be because it's so early into the relationship, I understand that, we've only been together for a couple hours... But Viktor doesn't seem like the type of person to care about that kind of thing. So then what is it?

"Okay." He says, letting go of me and walking back over to the table. I sigh and distribute out our portions of noodles before carrying them over to the table and sitting down.

"This is kinda weird. Just.. noodles." I say, laughing. He laughs too and I can't help but feel warm and happy when looking at his beautiful smile.

"Maybe noodles can be our thing." He says. I laugh and take a bite of the food sitting in front of me.

"Maybe."

For the next hour we just sat at the table and talked about the most random stuff. But honestly, it didn't bother me.

I really like this kind of thing.

But only with Viktor. Nobody else.

By the time I'd finally placed our bowls in the sink and washed all the dishes off it had hit 7:00. I hear Viktor walk out of the room and disappointment envelopes me.

Is he mad about earlier?

I walk out of the kitchen and go towards my room, hoping to lock myself in and not have to face him. I'm still pretty confused about earlier and I don't want to say something I'll end up regretting.

I start to close my bedroom door when at last second it's pushed back open. My eyes widen as I stare up into Viktor's stunning blue eyes.

"What, Viktor-"

"I'm sorry, Yuri." He says, enveloping me into a hug. He moves us back to my bed and sits me down, then getting down in the ground in front of me on his knees and hugging my waist.

I keep my arms down in shock and confusion. "Wh-what?"

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." He says.

"N-no, you didn't, I told you I-"

"Yuri, I want to," he says, looking up into my eyes. "I really want to show you how much I love you."

A blush covers my face and I lower my eyelids a little. My heart starts to beat faster and I look down at my lap.

"B-but Viktor, why did you say no back there? I mean, I respect it, but I'm just-"

"Yuri, Yuri, shh." He says, standing up and taking my face into his hands. "I said that because.."

He looks down at his hands, a small frown taking over his lips.

"It's too early, Viktor." I say, smiling at him. "I understand."

He bites his lip and his arms fall to his sides.

"No, Yuri, it's more. That's part of it, but there's so much more.." He says, getting back down onto his knees in the same position as before, except with his arms next to his sides.

My eyes widen and I run my fingers through his hair.

"What, Viktor?" I ask, my voice soft. He closes his eyes and I see him clench his fists.

"As.." He starts, trailing off. "As a kid.."

I stare at him, my heart almost stopping at his next words.

"I was sexually harassed."

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Please don't take offense to this, I just wanted to do this to add some kind of background to Viktor --