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I'm Done

Stop comparing me to you,
They know you're better and so do you
If you like the way victory feels,
Then why don't you just conceal

I hate how you think that nothing's wrong
You're looking at me and singing the same song
Nothing's out of order, nothing's out of line
You're feeling vivacious and I'll say that I'm fine

You'll smile, then laugh at our inside jokes,
While the fire inside me has just awoke
Stop being so perfect and trying to be someone else,
I was hoping you were still there, but it's just me and myself

You put on your mask and then talk to me,
I'll talk to you back, don't worry
Just what I say might take you aback,
Because I will remind you of the reality you lack

Then the fault has magically become mine,
And all will disappear in the matter of time
It's just a mood swing, just a moment of haste,
Sorry to break it to you, but that's all fake

When you've hurt me, there's no turning around,
So it's time to drop your weapons, I'm taking you down
Stop pretending I have no story to tell,
Because I was the one who picked you up when you fell

I have a life that's precious to me,
But now that you've broken it you'll finally see
That I'm just done with all that you've given,
All those mountains I climbed, the roads I've driven

Forget about us being love story material,
I thought you were better than to act so superior
I get it you've got the beauty and the brains,
But I thought I meant something, now I'm dealing with the pain
It's like you were better all along,
Reality hit me now so I know that I'm wrong

I thought I meant something at least to you,
But now I've uncovered the colors that remained true
Thanks for the reminder, now I know who to trust,
I know to never judge by the outer crust

Now I'll lie on the dark wooden floors,
Sitting in my corner, crying over the heart torn
You taught me a valuable lesson, something I'll never forget,
That I'm merely worthless, my mind has been set

Go on and bruise me, tear me down,
I won't move a muscle, just shoot me to the ground
Stop the pain from hitting me square in the chest,
Stop trying to challenge me, don't put me to the test

I get that I am nothing compared to your form,
And due to your presence I am broken and torn
I'll back away, just stop the falling tears,
I've come to a point where crying isn't needed here
I'm on the verge of plunging into a decision I can't take,
I can't venture that far, there are lives at stake

Rocking back and forth, sniffing back the flood,
Digging my nails into my palms, waiting for the blood
Thinking back to the times when I could move on,
Pick myself up and the memories, long gone

Now was not quite similar, as you'd gone too far,
You've thrown the ornament, left are the glass shards
You can't find the missing puzzle piece,
So just leave it forgotten, just like me

As I rub at my eyes as my hair covers my face,
I think back to how we'd gotten through the maze
Now we found ourselves back in yet another,
But this time we know we're not better together
No Winter or Summer or the pouring rain,
No more discovering the sides that came
I don't need to depend on you for my life,
Not again will you cut me with a silver knife

When I'm around you, I no longer smile,
You no longer elate me with your charm and style
I thought that you were the one I'd never noticed,
The one I could depend on when on my world was unfocused

I thought that when you'd said those three words to me,
I thought that it was over, that you'd let me be
But then you came rushing back and I was drowning in my tears,
It was no longer 'Euphobia', I was consumed by my fears

I thought I won't let the rain just pour,
That I won't let myself drown like before
But I was wrong and I'd fallen in your perfidy,
I was trapped in your love, spiraling in your insanity

The smallest favour could make me happy, a thank you could light up my day,
But you decided to break me, you went the wrong way

At one point I was annoyed with them third wheeling,
But now I know they were saving me from feeling
You've hurt me before, but now I'm truly done
I'm not saying this for motivation, it's not just for fun

"Mirror mirror on the wall", I said through silent tears,
And all because of you I felt that I didn't belong here
Time has slipped right through our fingers, I'm finally ready to fall,
Into the valves of death because now you've taken my all

Thank you for being a memory, thank you for passing me by,
Now I've finally opened my eyes, I've finally sensed the lies
So I'll crouch right beside the vulnerable girl who fell, taking her hand in mine,
Together we'll silently wash away our tears, for now it is finally time

I'm done with all the madness, I'm done with all the pain,
I'd always been told that before it shines, there has to be the rain
But this is not a drizzle, this isn't a passing shower,
It is a thunderstorm that has slowly overpowered

I'm done with you and the life I've lead,
But some things are just better left unsaid.

~Via

I'm Done.

This is the end.

Dear Reader,

My journey with Better Left Unsaid began with the start of December 2016, and ever since, I was a new person. Calmer, stronger, braver. Poetry changed my life. As I wrote out my problems and vented out my fears, I slowly felt like reality was fading away and I had an open mind towards magic. Dreaming. Fantasy.

I felt like things could actually be happening for the better. The more I wrote, I felt like I was communicating with more and more people across the globe as they read my work. I felt like I wasn't only writing for myself, but for the world. As time flew by, before I knew it, Better Left Unsaid reached #1 in Poetry on January 13th 2017.

Writing about anything and everything has really made me improve on myself as a person. Improve on my strengths, improve on my weaknesses. Better my bests.

BLU has given me an entirely different perspective of life and this entire writing journey has been nothing short of magical.

I know a thank you won't cover it, but let me just say- words can't describe my gratitude to you. Thank you for the support, thank you for the motivation. Thank you for sticking up for me when I thought no one was around to notice me.

I hope you liked 'I'm Done', and, it being the last poem in Better Left Unsaid, I decided to put in excerpts from every poem I've written in this book. Also, I am yet to begin my second poetry book, Whisper of Silence. It would be wonderful if you could check that out!

Well, I guess this is it. The end of Better Left Unsaid. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for everything. Goodbye.

Yours lovingly,

Olivia

Queenmelody16.