Call it Fate, Call it Karma

Acid

"Thanks for letting me hang." I said to Adam as I puffed on a cigarette in his apartment. "It's cool you live close."

"Why didn't you bring Julian?" he asked, "That dudes great."

"I, uhh...he--"

"Gimme your phone. I'm gonna call him."

"Adam, I--"

"C'mon! It's no fun with just us!"

"Oh? I'm having a pretty good time." I said with a forced smile. Adam was right, though. We were just sitting on the floor in his kitchen smoking and chatting about the most ridiculous things.

Adam raised an eyebrow at me. He knew I was lying. "I've got a bunch of acid?" he said with a grin, acting like it was a deal I couldn't refuse.

"I don't trust myself with that shit, man." I sighed, blowing out smoke.

"I bet Julian would do it with me." Adam said, looking a little bored. I didn't want him thinking I was a boring person in general, so I reluctantly gave in. Albert would not be happy about this...but why would he even bother to care anymore? I yelled at him for it.

"Fine." I rolled my eyes, sliding my phone to him. "Don't you have any other friends you could invite over?"

"I like new people." he said with another evil grin as he pressed the phone to his ear.

I was hoping for a relaxing, drama free afternoon, but it looked like I'd have to get ready for another wild night.

Shortly after Adam's call, Julian made his way over and greeted Adam with a friendly hug. I watched from the living room with a barely noticeable scowl as I smoked my 3rd cigarette that evening.

Julian looked over at me with a smile that soon faded when he noticed my death stare.

"I've gotta take a piss." Adam said, walking off. Great timing.

"What's wrong?" Julian asked as he gingerly approached me.

"I said I needed to clear my head for a bit, and that clearly meant from all of you." I mumbled, fiddling with a new cigarette. "...and you followed me here?!"

"Adam asked me to come over!"

"You knew I was here."

Julian rolled his eyes and fell down onto the sofa beside me, where he snatched the cigarette from my hand and stuck it in his mouth. I crossed my arms frustratingly as I watched him light it and deeply inhale.

"Why are you so sensitive today?" he asked, staring straight ahead.

Adam walked back into the room, so I hushed Julian and put on a smile.

"We doing it now or later?" he said with a smile, waving a baggie of acid tabs in front of me.

"Later, please." I sighed. I wasn't even sure if my body could take another night of this bullshit.

Julian stuck his cigarette in my mouth almost aggressively and snatched the bag off Adam. "Gimme!"

"I like your style, Jules." Adam laughed. "I'll get us some beers." Julian nodded a little too eagerly in response.

"Jules, what the fuck?!" I whispered as I watched him hastily open the bag. "No! Why are you doing this? You were doing so well!"

"Last night made me realise it's not the end of the world if I have a little fun every once in a while." he told me with a soft smile. "I won't be getting fucked up every night like I used to, babe." Babe?! How dare he call me that!

"Please don't do this." I said, my brow furrowed. "If you do, I'm going home."

Julian just shrugged. He didn't seem to care at all as he placed a tab on his tongue and closed his mouth. Adam walked over to give Julian a beer and I watched in disbelief as he happily took it from him and chugged the whole thing.

"You're such a fucking jerk!" I cried. I looked around for an ashtray, but there wasn't one, so I grunted, stubbing out my cigarette on my thigh. It hurt so much as it burned through my pants, but not as much as how Julian's actions hurt me. I stood up and stormed over to the front door, then turning around with my eyes glassed over. "I'm sorry, Adam. I've gotta go, but I'd like to hang out again soon. Call me."

Adam stared at me and nodded a little, probably taken aback by my outburst. Julian just sat there with a blank face, which only angered me more. I expected him to say sorry or call after me, but he just sat there doing nothing.

As I trudged through the streets, I thought about what to say to Albert. I needed him, but I told him to back off. I've never regretted anything more. I hoped the other guys were still at our place. Maybe I could talk to one of them. I said I'd talk to Nikolai.

I burst through the front door. I was crying hopelessly at this stage as I walked into the living room. I spotted Albert in the kitchen, scribbling in his notepad. Noticing no one else was there I hurdled toward him.

"Albert, I'm so fucking sorry!" I cried, wrapping my arms around him. "I'm so sorry. Please don't hate me. I'm so grateful you go out of your way to care for me. I don't know why I overreacted before. I need you." I sobbed into his shoulder and couldn't help but smile when I felt his arms around me.

"I could never hate you." he said softly, patting my back. "What's the matter?"

"Julian's at Adam's and he dropped acid and he's probably drunk right now!" I yelped, pulling away. "He didn't care! He doesn't care about me..." I started sobbing again at the thought. "I said if he took the acid I'd leave...and he just fucking took it and didn't even express any emotions! I'm fucking scared for him, Albert, and I don't know what to do! He was doing so well."

"Have you taken anything, Jade?" He asked, looking me in the eye.

"No! I promise! I'm just really emotional right now and I'm probably overreacting again. I'm so sorry. "

"Lets go get Julian, okay? Tell me where Adam lives."

"Thanks so much, Albie. I fucking love you and I'd fuck you right now if you weren't my best friend," I kissed him on the cheek. "I dont deserve you."

"Woah, little too much information, Jade...but thanks. Are you sure you haven't had anything?" Albert watched me skeptically with a smirk tugging on his lips.

"I'm sure." I nodded. "Stress has just taken over my body is all. I was just joking about the sex part...I swear."

Albert laughed, stuffing his notepad in the pocket of the gray blazer he was wearing. "Lets rescue Jules before he almost kills himself again."