Call it Fate, Call it Karma

Groupies

"I'm going out for a while," said Albert as he finished eating a piece of toast. "So you can fuck Julian or whatever you need to do. Suck his dick or something, I dunno."

I slapped him, my face heating up in embarrassment. "Shut the fuck up!"

"Just sayin' it how it is." Albert raised his hands and backed away with his lips pursed.

I rolled my eyes. "Where are you going?"

"Nick and Nikolai are out so I'm gonna go keep little Fabbie company."

"Aww, invite 'Lil Fabbie over here!" I exclaimed with a grin.

"No, because you and Jules are gonna need some privacy for your little friends with benefits skit."

"Stop it!" I hissed. "I doubt anything will happen."

"Riiiight." he laughed, pulling on his blazer. "I'll see you later."

I stood on my tiptoes and ruffled his hair. "Bye, Albie. You speak a word of my unfortunate situation to Fab and I'll brutally murder you!"

"See 'ya!"

I was quite nervous to be left alone with Julian. Who would make the first move?...if he even remembers his suggestion that is.

"Wait, can I come?!" I slightly desperately called after Albert.

"Nope!" he called back, closing the front door.

I cursed under my breath as I thought of how I'd approach Julian. Did I really wanna go through with it? Maybe Albert was right. He usually is. I'm probably just super horny and wanna jump at the first sign of affection shown toward me. Maybe if I screw Julian once, I'll feel relieved or something and won't wanna do it again. He'll probably feel the same way. Well, there's only one way to find out, I guess...

I walked into my bedroom and stood by the bed. Julian was still asleep, so I sat beside him, my knees hugged to my chest and I anxiously waited for him to wake up. I had to loudly clear my throat a couple times, because I'd already sat there for 20 minutes and was slowly going insane. I coughed one more time, and he started to wake up. I watched as he turned over and looked up at me with half-open eyes.

"Hey, Jules." I greeted him. "I'm sorry I was such a bitch last night. I was just really confused. I didn't know what I wanted...but now I do."

"Huh? What are you talking about?" he spoke with a confused, husky voice that only made me want him more.

I took a deep breath in before I spoke. "Remember your proposition last night?"

Julian paused for a second to think, I almost cried thinking he'd forgotten, but he had a sudden look of realisation and slowly nodded.

"Well, Julian. If it's alright with you, I'd like to take you up on that offer." I said, raising a finger. "But on one condition."

Julian perked up and widened his eyes in disbelief. "Go on..."

"We stay friends like we are now, but like you said last night: with certain benefits." I explained, although I wasn't very sure of what I was saying. "No feelings for each other. Can we do that? Is that cool?"

"I...I guess." Julian sat up and looked around as he rubbed his eyes. "Am I awake?"

"Excuse me?"

"Am I still dreaming?" he laughed. "Is this real? Pinch me."

"Shut the fuck up." I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and hungrily crashed my lips onto his.

"Fuck." Julian moaned against my lips as I threw myself on top of him.

Just getting to feel his lips against mine and inhaling his scent as I moved down to kiss his neck was enough to get me going. I was so excited to be this close to him that soft moans were unwillingly escaping my throat as he ran his hands up and down my body.

"Take me, Jules." I said breathlessly as I reached a hand back to unclasp my bra.

"Are...are you sure?" he asked, looking a little worried. "What I said last night was awful and I'm sorry I put that much pressure on you. You don't have to do this."

I silenced him with a kiss. "I want you so fucking bad." I reached my hand down to his crotch, but he grabbed my arm to stop me.

"Actually, Jade..." he spoke with a look of meer sadness. "As much as I wanna fuck you really hard right now, I know this sounds cheesy, but can we...can we just cuddle? I just wanna be next to you. And I don't want that to mean mindlessly fucking you."

I pulled away and lay down beside him, feeling quite disappointed, but also extremely happy, but I masked it with a frown. "Jules..."

"I'm sorry." he sighed. "I lead you on for a bit there. I'm really sorry. I know you said no feelings for each other, but I thought about it and I care too much about you. I know how are you are about these things and don't want you regretting this later. We've gotta build up to it, y'know?"

That was it. Right then and there, Julian had made me feel confident about what I was denying for so long.

"Julian, I love you." I said, staring blankly at the ceiling. "I fucking love you."

He said nothing and pulled me closer to him as I started to cry. I buried my face in his chest and probably cried for an hour. Julian never let go of me. He rubbed my back the whole time and kissed the top of my head, whispering reassuring things in my ear.

"You don't have to be afraid anymore." he said softly once I'd calmed myself down. "I love you too."

"I told Albert I wouldn't act on my feelings." I mumbled. "I told him I'd push them aside and get on with my life."

"You can still get on with your life!" Julian laughed. "But with me by your side! Fuck...that was also quite cheesy."

I giggled at his remark. "Yeah, but...you guys are getting popular, Jules. You're not gonna want a girlfriend just yet. You should be out fucking groupies and having the time of your life."

"You can be a groupie." he said with a smirk, pulling me closer to him. "My own personal groupie."

I jokingly slapped him and started laughing. "Ew!"

He kissed my forehead with a soft smile. "Okay, but in all seriousness, I don't give a fuck about groupies."