It was for the best. I know it was. All we wanted is for Louie to be Happy. We have him everything we could and we made sure he was happy. He wasn't the smiliest kid ever, but he was safe. He was happy with us. Everything felt right. It wasn't the right time at first, but it became more right. This was our start. Louie's father came back into his life. He found us not in the right way, but it happened. We had to accept that he was here. It hurt that we thought we would get to adopt him. He's our son and that's how it was supposed to be. It didn't work like that. We had to make the decision not for us. We had to make that hard choice for Louie because we love him. We will love him always, forever. We wanted him to be happy with all this family by his side. He has cousins, aunts, uncles all over and that's something we couldn't take away from him.
Were doing okay. it's been a month and it still hurts, but everything seems normal. It was hard at first Matt wasn't really dealing with it. He wanted to yell at someone. He wanted for everything to just be like before. We had to just realize that we couldn't get rid of the pain that fast. Living with it for a little while was what was going to help us. Louie's father agreed to let us see him from time to time. We couldn't do that right now though. It was just too painful still.
Matt got home, he hugged me " sorry I know it's late..." I held him tight to my body " it's okay... glad your home..." We sat on the couch together " how was everything..." He looked at me grabbing my hand " let's not talk about that.." I looked at him " everything ok..." He looked at him " yeah let's just not talk about work... let's talk about us.." I looked at him " I miss us... it's been hard but I just want to be us again." Matt looked at me " me too.... you know we talked about this before... maybe we should take a weekend away.. you know from all this.." I looked at him " get away..." Matt looked at me " yeah... we have time from work... we could take a couple weeks get off the grid a little and just have it be just us.." I looked at him " that sounds amazing..." He kissed my head " let's do it... we can talk to Boden tomorrow..."
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"I Will Always Love You!" - A Dawsey Story - Chicago Fire
FanfictionGrief everyone deals with it differently. It's a process and a painful process. "I Will Always love you!" is my version of what happens after 5x10. Matt and Gabby are newly weds who recently gave custody of Louie to his biological father that just c...
