Yin & Yang

Chapter 23: Found (Lilith)

I laid in the grass. My body felt like it had just been smashed in a trash compactor, and I was keenly aware of the fact I was shivering in the waning summer heat. I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't. I was too tired to do anything but lay here. It felt like Maddy had taken the light out of me. That was by far the worst, and strongest spiritual encounter that I had ever felt. I prayed that I would still be the same after this one. I hadn't encountered a suicide before this.

I wondered if the souls knew the pain they brought me as they crossed over into the light. I doubt they knew, and even if they did, the promise of heaven held no men back. At least for those who believed. I was not one of those people. After seeing the things I saw, listening to the dead drone on and on about their lives, I thought there was no way God watched over this and did nothing. How could you see this misery and do nothing?

For a long time I lay there, numb to the world around me. I was numb until I began to weep. That was when the emotions and feelings began to seep back into me. With each tear it was as if a piece of me was being put back into place. I was a million part jigsaw puzzle being assembled by sadness. Even as the feeling came back to my body I knew I was too weak to move. I was left weakened by my powers. I didn't mind lying here, until I heard footsteps.

I tried to pry my eyes open, but they stayed shut except for the continuous leaking of tears. I wanted to plead to whoever it was not to hurt me. I wanted to plead to them, that they would just leave me alone. But like my eyes, my mouth would not open. The only sound that escaped was the whimper of a kicked dog.

"Shhhh," A voice hushed me. "Lilith it's okay."

Cold hands slid under my body lifting me up off the ground. My face was then pressed against a well toned torso, one that I recognized.

"I've come to take you home." Cam said cradling me to him.

I began to weep more, at the comfort of him being here. Someone that I had fought with for so long, someone who I considered a great friend, someone who I turned into a monster...here he was, saving me.

"What were you doing all alone in the cemetery like that? God, and you're freezing." I heard the side door to the house open and close. All I could do was rock back and forth in his arms. He eventually opened the door to my room and gently set me down in my bed. "Ah shit Lil, shhh its okay."

I wished that I could open my mouth to respond, to thank him, to tell him to stay, anything. But it was as if he knew what I wanted. His muscular frame layed down next to me. His body for once was warmer than mine. I was grateful to have him here. For a while we just laid like that. But then Cam stood up. He told me that he had to go get a drink of water. Honestly I hadn't thought twice about it until I heard the door open again, and then two sets of footsteps in the kitchen.

"Cam?" I heard my brother say. His voice was barely a whisper.

"Hi, uh, Gabe." Then a glass shattered on the floor.