I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER THIRTEEN :

XENA CARTER

"..aa.." I don't know what to say.

'' i know why." what the heck! am i bustsed already.

" you like prince, right?" omo...how does he know that I like prince.

" you know I like you but why are you acting like that. I'm a playboy, yes. but I know how to get hurt and jealous too." Huh?.. wait i'm confuse. what is he saying that all of a sudden.

Did i heard him right? hurt and jealous? because of me?

"ha..haha.." he's making me laugh

"don't make fun of me i'm serious."

"hahahaha... sorry but its really funny." just know him being jealous because of me...its unbelievably funny... i can't even imagine.

"so you're not denying that you have feelings for prince."

"Too personal. I'm not admitting too. I don't wanna say anything, like you not wanting to say who is that very important person that you are finding." I don't care too who is that person is if he don't wanna tell me. So i'm just gonna use it to avoid his question to me. I don't like telling anyone about how i feel about prince. I'm still on my way to moving on.

"Really you don't have to tell me who is it. I can understand that you have your own privacy. And same goes for me don't ask me personal question that i don't wanna answer." he looked more pissed.

''its my...'' is he really gonna say who is it?

'' no!'' he looked shock by my shout.

'' Don't tell me." If he happend to tell me who is it..i have to admit too that i have feelings for prince.

'' Let's just keep our secrets a secret. we just knew each other for a short time. trust, you can't give that so easily. Don't trust me yet."

Then he smile so innocently. this is the first time i saw him smile without me getting annoyed at him. i feel like my heart si beating a bit faster. Maybe because he look so handsome.

"I'll keep my secret but you acting like that almost give me an answer to my question. Your secret wasn't a secret anymore." headache!, was i really that obvious.

.....

"you don't have to walk me home. I'll just go by myself." I really don't want him to do that. my might see him and get the wrong idea.

"no. i should do this atleast for you.'' I hope i just said yes.

"you don't really have to. And I don't want either."

"why? ahh... is it because i kisser you last time?" I almost forget about that. why does he have to remind me of that time its so embarrassing. i feel loke my face gets hotter.

at that end i can't stoped him. we are in front of my house.

"I'm here now so you should go home."

"you're not gonna invite me in?"

"what the heck?! why would I? you insane.. go already."

"xena? why are you shouting?'' my mom.. what to do?

''hello untie... I'm her friend and she's kinda shouting at me. she's kinda hot headed sometimes." omo... he's doing that again.. that annoying smile of him.

"oh..my.. i don't know my xena have such a gorgouse friend."

"GORGOUSE?? mom really." this mom of mine really likes handsome guys.

"your her mom? i thought your just her sister." What??

"ii.. your not only hansome. you also have a good eye." really... this conversation makes me sick.

" you guys giving me goosebumps." i shove my mom a bit cause she's blocking the door way, and i enter the house.

" aigoo.. youre just leaving your friend like that? he even took you home."

"don't mind him. just let him go home."

I got in my room. because of him i got no time watching kdramas. i have to work on my homework and study a bit there might be a quiz tomorow.

just an hours passed my mom called for dinner. its a bit too early. is she already hungry? i dont feel hungry cause gill took me out just a few hours ago.

Seeing him together with mom makes me remind of someone i hate the most.

" mom its too early what gotten into you?.......just what the heck are you still doing here??!!"

i can't believe this gill was inside our house.

"of course he's here to eat. can't see?" yeah yeah! good answer mom. "just sit here already so we can start eating."

I don't feel like eating. but i still seated and gill change his seat and sit beside me. All i can do is glare at him but he still dare to smile at me.

I try move my seat away from him but my chair won't move. Then i saw him holding it. ah! seriously!

"come on let's pray so we can start eating."

As mom said we start praying and now ready to eat but i still have no appetite. Hence i still took a bite but i feel like it taste like nothing. while this two happily chatting with each other.

I don't plan to mind them but i heard a word that i can't take the most.

" untie you sure cook so well. this are really tasty"

"really? thank you for your compliment. though i know your only just being nice."

"no.. its really delicious. does xena knows how to cook too?"

"No. i tried to teach her before but she doesn't want to. she's not really interested in cooking."

"That's a pity.. girls should know how to cook. you and her seem like a bit differnt from each other."

"ah..e.." what you don't want to answer that. why we are different from each other?

"she's a bit boyish unlike you maybe she take after his father.." I slam the table so hard with my right hand while still holding the spoon so the sound of slamming became too loud.

I look at this guy beside me. though glaring is the right word to say.

" yeah i don't take over her cause she's not my real mom. as you can see she's so feminine and pretty unlike me. my dad and her are not even married. my real mom left dad because my dad have many mistress. my mom left me with dad and never return for me again. i almost forgotten what she looks like. And for that lady over there my dad also left her for another woman and left me with her. I really don't take over her cause she's stupid and i'm shameless. "

"..xena.." mom tried to stop me by her troubled soft voice.

but i'm still looking at gill.

"she's stupid cause she can't throw me away. and the shameless me just stayed here and depend on her. "

"..xena please stop it." from mom's voice i know she's crying. " why are you saying such thing?" she stand up and left.

I can't move from my seat i can't even move a finger. why? why do i have to say all that now? i feel so bad for mom. I..I don't deserve such person like her to take care of a worthless person like me.

I suddenly felt that gill hold my hand gently. i looked at his hand and and looked at him so confused. than my tears finally fall.

gill slowly stoke my head then pull me gently to his shoulder. i feel so warm from his embrace.

TBC...