I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER THIRTY~SEVEN

Gill...

She left as she closed my door carefully.

How could she ask something like that from me?

My knees gave up and I fell sitting on my bed. I'm rubbing my head to ease my headache. Maybe the one I should be caressing is my chest, cause it's hurting a thousand times than my head.

I am barely hanging just to avoid her. And now she is asking for me to hurt her. How could I do that?

My heart is breaking just seeing her lonely eyes in front of me. Should I just be selfish and take her away from her mom?. I really wanted to but I care for her too much. I just have to endure it for weeks, I have to.

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I skipped dinner to avoid her. I'm not ready to face her yet.*knocked *knocked

"I said I won't eat." But the knocking won't stop. I knew who's behind it now.

"Leave!" I said that but I was leaning on my door to feel the knocking she's making. I don't feel annoyed more like it's music me.

"You.. do you don't want to eat in the same table with me? Is it the reason you don't join us?" She said from the outside.

No...

"Your father is worried. But he just let you be. I know it's not comfortable eating with me so next time I'll be the one skipping."

No please don't...

" I said don't avoid me but I can understand that you don't wanna eat with a stranger."

You're not a stranger cause right now you're the most important person to me.

" I'll give you your time to eat, I won't bother you during your meal time.........so please eat on time. I... brought your food, please eat it. I'm gonna leave now... oh one more thing, don't forget my favor ..ok? Your first move really worked a lot."

I'm dying to open this fucking door and give her a hug and tell her everything. Tell her how much I love her. But I still endured, I don't know that I can be this patient in my life.

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Early morning the maid knocked on my door like she usually do every morning to tell me the breakfast is ready.

I am now in the kitchen to have breakfast. I saw untie, Xena's mom giving some food to Tracie. I bet Xena would get jealous if she saw this.

"oh Gill come eat with Tracie."

"Thank you but I'll be going. I'll just take a loaf of bread."

"Why? That's not enough. Even Xena left without eating and go to school so early. She's being weird since last night. She is not a morning person but she left really early. And even though she is very late she would still eat. I wonder what's with her."

Is this one of her 'I'll give you your time to eat' did she left early for me to eat?

That stupid girl!!

I took a bus to school. I can't drive, I might lose focus on the road and caught an accident.

When I arrived at school I saw her standing in front of the school gate staring at me but I avoided her stare and just walk like I didn't see anything.

She didn't stop me nor say anything but I know she is following me. What is she planning?

I'm now about to go inside the classroom I turn around to look if she is still following me, and she is there standing meters away from me. She faint a smiled, her smile is hurting me, turn around and leave. I want to stop her. Come closer to me, don't go, tell me you love me over and over again until I lose my control and don't care about the world.