I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER ELEVEN:

XENA CARTER

Just what with the 'i love you , but don't love me' just what is running on his mind. I think i have watched something like this in one of the korean dramas i have watched.

I don't know whats the purpose of him saying that he love me but dont love him back. Ahh.. i remember he said it is because for me not to fall for him so once he got sick of me i won't get hurt. But He just shouldn't have told me that he love me, its not like in gonna fall for him, right?

Him saying that just made me think of him too much.

Is he just making fun of me? Is it really posible for him to fall in love with me. I'm too ugly for the like of him. I'm not his type of girl also. I'm not even nice to him. And most of all we've just met. I don't realy think that It is posible to fall in love just like that.

He is always giving me problem. I'm having a major headache bacause of him. I have my own problem to be solve, why is he giving me more.

..... the next day

Normaly i slept late because of watching kdramas but last night it is because of my problems that i didn't make myself. Those problematic people drag me with them. I slept realy late cause im thingking how to get rid of them all.

When i open my door to get outside he.. yes he...he was there at the front gate and waving his hand. Why? Why is he here? He's creeping me out. I want to enter the house again but it is imposible casue i'm ganna be late at school.

"What are you doing? Why are you here? Can you not do this again. It is realy uncomfortable."

"Why? I'm planning to do this for a month or less" ah! This guy. i have no choice but to go to school today with him. we rode a bus and sit side by side.

"You're ruining my day early in the morning. That one month thing, are you realy serious with that? I mean saying that you love me, are you sure that you really are in love with me? Maybe its just something else... i don't know. Or are you just making fun of me. Tell me the truth."

His face become serious, with his face like that makes me think that everything he will say is true and its making me nervous.

" I really am in love with you. i love you."

OMO!! Whats with him?! Isn't he embarrass saying that? if not, i'm the one getting embarrass for him.

" ha...ha.. i feel like i shouln't have asked."

should i believe him?

"i'm thinking if i should believe you or not. but for you it seems like it doesn't matter if i do or not. cause it will only last a month and everything will be over." *sigh "ok, i'll just have to make your month shorter. i'll help you get over me." and smiled at him.

his face doesn't look pleased. why? he should be happy cause i'll help him and it will be over sooner. He's not talking, just looking at me with his displeased eyes.

"why?"

"i know i'm the one who said that i'll get over you in one month. but seeing you not even moved by my confession just now, it really pissed me off. and you even say you'll help me get over you makes me more angry. i guess this proves that i am really in love with you."

"no, not really. maybe it's just your pride." ...its our stop. i stand up and take a few step but he's not moving...."what are you doing? its our stop come on. I won't wait for you--you know?"

I was in our class and gill was out of sight. I'm not thinking of him much now like i did last night. cause i already collected my thoughts about his confession. I'll just accept what ever it is he's sprouting. It will only last a month any way.