Xena...
My mom apologize for not being there for me. Maybe it's because I can barely remember her that's why I didn't have any grudges to her unlike when Dad left. And I have my stop mom carrying a mother role instead of her. But I'm really happy seeing her.
"It's dad fault after all so don't feel too sorry. You only wanted to have the life you wanted. Thank you for letting me meet you."
"No I should be the one thanking you for being so understanding." Mother said as she caress my hand.
"I'm an adult now too so I have to be understanding as I can."
After the dinner we decided to get in touch with each other maybe meet again if possible.
I came home. And Gill was waiting here infront of my apartment.
"Are you still waiting for me??" This guy don't how to stop.
"What do you want for supper?" He asked. I thought he's gonna ake more about my mother that I met. I thoughy he wouldn't believe me.
"Hmm.." I'm thinking. "I'm still a little full so I can't think of anything I want. I'll just anything when its dinner time." I'm unlocking my door.
"I'll buy it! lets eat together later." My hand stop slowly turning my head.
".... ok." He just asked me for dinner but why am I getting the feeling like he asked me out for a date. I getting g so ahead of myself, being too nervous for nothing.
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Still got a few hours before the dinner I just change my clothes but starting to chose again. Its still up to me where we go right? I don't wanna bet over dressed. I'll just choose something that is not looking too dull. My clothes are all plain so nothing would really change much.
I got change and wait out side I lay on the bench waiting for the sky to get darker. We will have an outing tomorrow I should pack my clothes when I came back, I'm still a bit lazy doing it now.
I closed my eyes and relax my body..........
.........Slowly opening my eyes, Did I fall a sleep, it's dark now. Strangely my body's not strained or cold. I notice I had a blanket covering me and.....I feel like jumping when I noticed my head was actually resting on Gill's lap.
I sat down, "you should have just waken me up."
"you look so tired so I chose not to." I'm lying if said I said I'm not touched.
"but what time is it? You didn't yet, right? Let's go you should be hungry by now." I felt sorry for sleeping.
"No, we don't need to go anywhere now. I don't want you walking around when you are that tired. I've already called for a delivery. I will arrive any minute now."
I can't say anything, He is so sweet.... but will he stay the same.... even if he would realize that I'm not the Xena he used to like anymore? I'm a dull and boring person now.
He is only like that now maybe still thrilled about knowing who I was. I'm so afraid to get hurt again. I'm able to moved on before but this time I don't think I can ever move on if I got hurt again.
While we are eating.
"Wanna go shopping tomorrow?" he asked. Another date to my ears once again.
"But we already have plans for tomorrow." I meant of the vacation.
"its before we go, you might wanna buy something bring. " I look down at my clothes.
"... Is my clothes too dull for the event?" Do I look that bad?
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I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back
Teen FictionMaybe i have watched too many tv drama, cause right now i really wish that im a nerd. And one day the most handsome boy in school will fall in love with me. You think the most miserable person in tv drama was the nerd??? Well i dont think so.....