I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER FOURTY~FIVE

Xena...

I have woken with Gill in front of me. I have been avoiding him but I guess I can't now.

"What are you doing here?" He came to me like and I don't feel good about it

"I'm sorry for everything." His face while saying sorry... I know he really meant it and sincere. Isn't this acctually a good thing? But I don't feel it that way. "From now on I'll stop being mean to you and I--"

"Do you wanna get back together? Then I will forgive you." I cut what he is saying. This are all none sense to me if he didn't want us together again.

"I.."

"I said I'm moving on but I can give you another chance." But he just look away.

"I'm sorry but I can't, but I will treat you as my sister. I promise I will be a good and dotting brother to you." 

"What?" I can't believe he said that to me. What sister is he saying? He and tracie doesn't even have a good relationship. And he wants to treat me as a sister?

This is really hurting me. And I'm getting pissed.

"You want to treat me as a sister after all those kissing?!" But atleast my temper is back and I can feel my blood now, I don't know whether its agood thing or not.

"Thinking about it, did you start hating me when you know tha t I will live in your home, do you hated me because of that? You don't want me in your family, in your home? Why? cause you are just playing with my feeling from the start and its annoying for you to live in the same house as me." I know I'm making reason for my self. But I really need a reason for all of this, cause all he has given me is I don't love you anymore and thats it, so i rather he doesn't love me at all since the beginning. Being sick with me for just a short period of time is hurting my pride its better not to love me at all.

"I'm.."

"Are you pitying me? That's why you want to act as brother now?"

"I'm sorry." Did he just admit all the things i said? So I was right? He doesn't.. loved me... all along?

"Leave.." he slowly stand up.

"and I... I'd rather than show me your fake brotherly acting, let's just treat each other as a... stranger." I was looking at the floor when said that and when he left I wiled my face full of tears. I don't even know when I started crying.

Prince...

I received a message from Gill and it was an address telling where is Xena is. Did my word affected him that much? I wonder what happend.

The teacher just got in and I got out running ignoring him.

I arrived at the address, this must be the home of Xena before they move in to Burton's.

The door was slightly open so I got inside. Then I heard someone sniffing, It made me swallow as I imagi ing that it was a ghost. But i still the noise there I saw the back of xena. This is really her right? Or is gill mesxing with me? Did he want to pull on prank on me because of what I said earlier?

"Xena?" I carefully asked. She looks back and I'm relieve that it is really her.

"You are crying again?"

"I'm not" I know 100% sure that it was because of gill again, so this is the reason for his text.

"Stil, denying when it is so obvious." I sat beside her.

"Still asking even it is so obvious." She got me there.

" ok. Ok you are not crying. Are you so sad because you can't open that thing?"