I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

17th chapter

Xena....

I can't believe Sam opened her heart to forgive me. I don't deserve to have such good friend like her.

"its been a while I think I have to go back to work." Even though it will be awkward for me. To be in the same space as 

"Aren't you having a hard time? That guy.. he become worst than before. and a lot."

I nodded. " But I've been here for about two months, I'm kinda used to it now." I smiled forcefully.

"you know... earlier... Tracie really... does she have to go this far to look for someone that looks like you, Her name must be fake, how could there be someone who have the same name as you and also look like you. Sooner or later Tracie would find  a way for Gill to know. Would it still be a good idea to hide your identity?"

"I don't know either. Does it even really matter if he knows me or not?  I'm not actually hiding who I am it just happened And there is nothing going on between us. I don't know why Tracie have to bring such person between us. ahhhh.... maybe" I suddenly thought of something.

"Tracie was really angry with me so maybe she knows that I'm getting adapted here. And find another person to harass me. "

"You should be careful. I wanted you to quit but you said you have to stay for another ten months right?"

I nodded. "Don't worry about me even though I change a lot I believe I'm still quite tough inside." I stand up to leave already. And Sam gave me a smile but she still look worried in that smile of hers.

I was about to exit the cafe when I turn around and run back to give Sam a hug.

I whisper, "I miss you so much, thank you." and like a silly child I run away as fast as I could. 

.........

I'm in front of Gill's office but I can't seem to have a courage to open the door. It feels so weird, like looking at myself together with Gill.

If he accepted that girl to be his new secretary then what about me? Will I be transfer to Sam's department again? Then that would be nice right? I have to go inside now to hear that good news.

I knock three times before opening the door. The girl is looking at me while Gill doesn't seem to hear that someone got inside cause he is so busy staring blankly at that girl while she is feeling awkward.

She stand up looking so excited that someone came in to broke her uneasiness.

"Sir! someone is looking for you!" she said.

"Let's eat lunch together." Gill said still has her eyes fixed with that girl.

"huh?" she said, "...but isn't still..quite early?"

"no, its fine. Its my treat for your first day at work."

"i.is that so." as she awkwardly accept the invitation.

I tried to speak up, cause he have an appointment that has been canceled yesterday. " but you have to meet Mr. Cruz Sir,"

"reschedule my appointment again." ... " come on Sena." 

Gill walk out first. then the girl run into me "BIG SIS... Is your boss a pervert?" she asked me looking so worried.

"..I.. I don't think he is. " I can see where she got that from, but why is Gill acting like that? he really looks like a pervert. "Did he do something weird to you?"  I know he won't do something like that but I still have to make sure.

"no! after hugging me so suddenly he immediately apologized. He sited across my seat and just look at my face. when I tried speaking up he said 'just stay still' he said it very gently but I feel so scared that it hard for me to move even just a little."