I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER FOURTY~SIX

Xena....

"What? Are you kidding me? that's imposible." I came and take a look. Prince is holding a card and gave it to me.

To my lovely daughter Xena..

Happy birthday! You know dad love you and miss you so much. I won't make any excuses this time. How are you? I really want to here from you please call me. 009xxxxxxxxxx

What is this? Why did mom hide this from me?

I got another card on different gift. All gift have its own card.

Merry christmas... dad is very sorry to leave you without saying anything. I know I'm very selfish, I apologize. I called but you don't wanna talk me but I understand, I know you are really mad at me. But I'm dying to hear your voice, here is my number 009xxxxxxxx. You can shout at me or even curse me, say I'm tye worst person. But I just wanna hear ypur voice..... love dad

I'm  tearing up. I look at price, I don't even know what kind of face I'm making now.

" you are right this gift are all for me from my dad."

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I opened the gifts and collect the cards.

"Aren't you mad? Auntie hide all of this from you." I sigh..

"No.. I'm not. But I don't really understand why she have to hide this from me. Maybe I have recived it before I'll just end up throwing it. And the thing is I don't feel have the right to be angry at mom. All she did is to give her love to me but now she has her real daughter the right person to receive those love... but thats fine too, you know receiving a lot of love is so burdensome. "

"Liar, you don't look fine to me." I pouted. 

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I confronted my mom about it and I never imagined that just because of that she hyperventilate and faint. We run mom to the hospital. 

It's only me and tracie is waiting outside while the doctor is examining mom, while uncle is on his way.

She is glaring at me but  not saying anything. Maybe what I did was wrong, am I really at the wrong here?

The doctor came out and said mom is already stable Tracie camein but I stayed out side. I'm a bit scared on what will happend to mom if she saw me again. But just after a few minutes Tracie came out saying mom called for me.

"mom.." she looked at me and gently smile. "I'm sorry."

she taps the side of her bed, wanting me to sit there. so I did then she holds my hands.

"You know I should be the one who needs to apologize."

"no.."

"I'm sorry. I know it wrong hidding the truth from you. I just don't wanna lose a daughter again.

I hide all those to make ypu think that your father totally forgot about you. Cause you might miss him and tell him to get you and I know how much your father love you so he will do whatever you want."

"I understand now why you did it but if father really loves me then why does he leave me."

"that... I think you should hear it from him. I know you want to..." I guess mom still afraid that I will leave once I met dad.

"it's ok. if you don't want to, then I wont talk to him." I do, I really want to talk to dad and hear his reason but if mom don't want to then I won't.