I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER TWENTY

xena ...

uhh!!! I gasp when he pulled my arms then hold the back of my head that leads my lips to his.

i try pushing him away but but he's too strong. my lips starting to get hurt, he's to forceful.

i'm getting so angry with him, i collected all my strength and manage to push him and landed a big slap on his face. his lips bleed a little i can't even guess if its from my slap or that horrible kiss.

I'm panting hard because of anger. I can't cry now, please don't cry not now, not in front of this jerk. but i still did, a tear falls , i closed my eyes i can't look at him anymore, lower my head and i cant stop these tears any more.

I'm so scared of him. i can't believe he can  do that kind of thing to me. those eyes are so terrifying.

I flinch when i felt he's hugging me carefully. I can't move.

"i'm so sorry... please don't cry... i won't do it again." but i cant stop crying

"please  leave?... leave me alone."

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I return home.

shit!!!!!

just what the hell is that?!

ahhhhh!!!!!  I'm screaming from the inside while pulling my hair out.

that jerk!! that selfish jerk!!!

how could he stole my first kiss in such horrible way!!! why!!!??

but he looks so sad when he let me go...aishh!! who cares!!??
  He's a big jerk!! i won't ever talk to him again!!

I'm gonna punch him if he ever talk to me or even come closer to me!

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AT SCHOOL...

My heart is beating so loud. please I don't wanna see him. don't let me see him..my God!!

I'm not so lucky, am I?

I saw him walking towards my direction. I stopped from walking as i avoid his stare.

But... he just pass like I'm some stranger to him.

I should be relieve right?

but it feels so strange that I feel so hurt inside.

i was ignored.

I guess feeling hurt because someone ignored you was natural. It doesn't have any other meaning into it.

I continue walking and every step i make makes me feel so annoyed.

Just what the heck! really? i was ignored? and you even said you love me and you even ki.... ahhhh!!!!

no! no! no!!

then i saw sam.

" SAM!!!! " i hug her " i miss you so much!! please tell me we can go home together again. i'm so lonely without you!"

"sorry you still have to wait a week."

"a week~~ i don't wanna~~ my life is fucked up without you~~"

"what do you mean?"

" i don't think i can survive a week without you~~ i'm so stressed~~"

"what happened?"

"i have so much to tell you~~" i was about to cry on her shoulder--

"sam!!" --when someone call for her. eii!!!