I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER FOURTY~EIGHT

I'm going to transfer cause its been decided that I will live with dad as soon as posible. I told my teacher to keep it a sectet from the class cause I just want to spend the rest of my days here normaly. Maybe thats a bit mean of me but I will just apologize later.

But Sam needs to know. I wasn't leaving yet but I feel so regretful leaving my very best friend. She is the number one person I'm going to miss.

Sam.....

Xena insisted a sleep over at my home, Maybe she is too lonely this days. There are a lot of talk going on about her, like 'after gill this unknown ugly girl is now going for Prince' not just that there is a lot of different rumors some say she's about to comit suicide.

Then now she is telling me that she is leaving. Of course it made me so sad that I wanted to tell her don't leave. I was never selfish when it comes to her so I'm wishing I can make her not go and be selfish this time . But I know this is the best for her, to be in a place where she knows she really belongs and never felt out of place.

I feel like my life will never be the same without her. She is leaving for good, different school living in a different country. We are almost always together all the time. We are not just friends we are sisters so knowing that she's about to leave in just a few days really breaks my heart.

I'm trying my best to not cry but when she started crying how could I not.

we cried like crazy. 

"Why do you have to cry! You made me cry too." 

"But you cried so loud that I can't stop my crying." So now its my fault that we cried like crazy?

The next day we got to school together from my home obviously. About her leaving she made it a secret from our class, for sure this guys will curse her when she left. 

Then during lunch Prince joined us. He also told Prince that she leaving, after all Prince does help her a lot. Well I don't exactly know what is going on with this two.

Right after we finished eating Xena went to the rest room leaving prince and me alone.

"I'm so curious. Do like xena?" I asked prince.

"I like her" he said with a smile.

"What i  mean is as a love intresst."

"Yes. I really love her but..."

"But you won't confess?" He look at me a bit surprised

"Well i think confessing now was not a good idea. You know she's about to leave, and start a new life. And I don't wanna hold her back." He said the hold her back in a joking tone.

"Hold her back? You think she will second thought of leaving because you confess to her? Haha.."

He just shrugged his shoulder.

" you know i think so too. You are such a nice catch."

"But kidding aside, i like her but confessing is useless cause i know she feels nothing for me. all of her now is about Gill."

Xena....

A week have been passed i'm all set to leave for tomorrow but I still haven't still met Gill. I wish I can say goodbye to him. 

I did say we should treat each other as a stranger. But i think i should forgive since I'm already leaving and we will not  see each other anymore. Well maybe we would see each other someday and If that day comes we can face each other with a smile.

I want to say to i can forgive him someday if not now.

But uncle said Gill with his mom and doing something important, business related.