I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

CHAPTER THIRTY~TWO

Xena....

I was laying in my new bed in a new room  with a new feeling of hurt. A heart ache that I never felt before.

I can't sleep for my eye continue flowing with tears.
Was his words all a lie? But I don't felt that they are. My heart believes that they were all true but my mind second thought.

Is this the end? Why so soon?
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WHAT THE FUCK!!!

Is he a real psycho??!!. after all that drama he just woke up next morning and he doesn't love me anymore!!!?? Is that posible???!!
unless... does he have an amnesia??!!
or was he possesed??!!
Well that was how K drama works.

I really don't undersatand him.

I stand up and wash my face to cool my eyes to the sink in the comfort room that is attached to my room.

I looked at my expression in the mirror. and there is a girl who look like me smiling evily and shout. "No this is not the end, not now. YOU WISH GILL BURTON!!"

yeah... she is right. and I replied in a soft voice
" I atleast have to try, right?"

" you love him a lot just to give up like that. you need to collect yourself together and get ready for a fight!!!" fight you said but...

"But he said he doesn't love you any more." I'm about to cry again.

"BULLSHIT!! You have to make him love me again."

"love you?? look at yourself you're so frugal for any boys liking. how can he love us again?"

"FUCK!! If I didn't know being frugal is one of our traits he love the most." I laugh in her.

"did he really?? I'm thinking about it too."

"ok sleep already!!! you silly girl!!"

After collecting my thoughts I finally felt sleepy. I'm so crazy talking with myself in that mirror.

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Fighting Monday morning!!!

I came to my room already dressed for school. My new room is amazing is so big and almost all I need is already there. I like my old room in our previous house but this one is not bad, well almost too good if it weren't for the atmosphere. This house is a combination of Heaven and Hell.

There's a maid that approached me when I'm closing my room's door and told me that the breakfast is ready. If feel a bit awkward cause I'm not used on having a maid like this and  so freaking formal. Mom calls for a house keeper twice a week to clean our house and to cook when she is there and laundry our clothes. 

I followed the maid until we reached the dinning table. But before we reached there I saw Gill walking out. My body automatically follows him and left the maid uninformed.

He is not aware of me following him. He open his car's door and ride and so do I in his passenger seat.

"what the...." now he notice me. I smile at him. I buckle my seat belt and gesture me hand in go "Let's go."

"get out." he said. aaiishh!! so cold. " you said before that you don't want to ride in  my car."

"ohhh..yeah you remember? I thought you have an amnesia." i said mockingly " well you are not thee only one who can change a mind." I said sarcastically 

He came down and open my door 

"get out!" . so funny he is annoyed.

I cross my hand on my chest and said.... " I'm locked"... I shrugged my shoulder. I'm locked it means the seat belt.