I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

19th chapter

Gill...

"Have you ever hurt someone you love?" 

I never thought I would hear such question from her. Was the painting that symbolic for her?

I did to became emotional when I was that. Perhaps we shared same story.

I used to think of Xena when I'm looking at this Photo but now all I see was her crying face.

She said I'm moving her heart. I don't feel any negative feeling from that though I know she was sent by Tracie. To be honest I thought she was cute and tease her cause she's cuter when she's angry like someone I know. Xena.

But when it come to reminding of Xena it was my new secretary. though they look a like they are totally different. I kinda feel bad for her with out even noticing I wanted her to do what Xena used to do. When I'm just looking at her from a far, I felt like she was really is Xena but just a moving picture of her.

Xena....

Eiiii!! I shouldn't really have said anything!! Why am I this stupid even though I'm already an adult?

From now on don't say anything more stupid than that.

That was I promised to myself two two weeks ago but why am I in this situation now?! Please someone take me away from here.

Gill is staring at me, I don't know what he is thinking, he's been like that cause I nonchalantly said I love him and date me.

...well this is what happened before that.

It was a company outing on the beach even though Sam can't able to come just to see this wonderful sight was enough for me. 

Sena wanted me to come but we just shared a room other than that I was literally alone cause she was always together with Gill. But I don't think they are dating yet, she haven't told me anything and Gill wouldn't do that silly thing to me everyday if they are dating, right?

After that day when I cried just because of a painting  whenever he saw me he is winking at me. I was even starting to think that he had problem with his eyes. 

....

I'm walking here and there taking some photo of the beach. I felt hungry I didn't felt the time at all it was getting a little dark now. I should have dinner first then get to the cottage and rest.

I came into a random restaurant that I saw other a dish.

"Xena?" I got really startled when I heard my name being called. 

"you? what are you doing here?" Its my exboyfriend, Reon. "Are you with your family?" I turn left and right to see if they are here.

"N..No, they are not here!"

"why?"  I doesn't felt good seeing him here.

"I'm on a business trip." But why does he look nervous. Was he afraid that I might beat him up again? Then why bother calling me.

"Did you got promoted? You never had any business trip before."

"y..yes. I did."

"wow congratulation. I guess breaking up with me gives you luck huh." Good for him but what about me? I kind of felt unfair. I'm the one who got hurt and still getting hurt.

"I'm sorry. I..." he wanted to apologize but I stopped him

"I can't.. I'm still not ready to forgive you."

I left and just took my food for dine out. I don't want him to think I was alright after he did that to me. I want him to feel miserable by hurting me.