I WISH I WAS THE NERD: the girl at the back

The bad nerd pt.14

prince....

It's been a week since Tracie came to talk to me.

I have been waiting for her to come back. I'm sure she won't leave just like that. Maybe using her parents lure me in her trap.

But the other thing I notice about her was she became alot prettier than the last time I saw her and keep telling myself not to be affected.

"can we talk for a moment?" Xena's Dad came to me in the middle of break.

Outside the restaurant.

"you. How long will you stay like that?" he asked but I don't know what he is talking about.

"stay like what?"

"since you came back from talking with that pretty lady you're mind is floating every now and then." I'm guilty. I was so out of focus this days but I don't think it was so bad that they would notice.

"Why would you reject her if you will act like that?"

"reject her?"

"Then are you the one who got rejected? I can't read the situation well." 

"What are you talking about?"

"Well she said she was here to confess to you for the last time. She even said she was rejected by you twice. So she doesn't confess to you? though I think she was really settled her mind in what she wants to say. Then maybe you are too rude to her that's why she can't talk, She was so nervous to begin with."

"How can you tell she is really nervous though she is try hard to hide it? I saw the way she ate. She can't eat well. Even though she doesn't have the appetite she tried her best to finish her food. I even gave her dessert to calm down a bit."

Was I wrong? Did I judge her wrong? It's not her appearance that change was it? All that she said to me was from her heart. Why I didn't notice that?

I hated her until now it is because I still love her even with her bad attitude and personality.

I hated her more because I can't forget her what ever I did. I'm blinded by my hate with her that I didn't see that she changed. Why did I forgot that there is still a good thing with her?

Did she really loved me? Was her love from before was actually her real feelings?

"I think I need to go." I wanna to see her again. I wanna ask her myself.

"ok go."

"I'll be coming back to (their original country.. I forgot what country letter country I put on)"

"NOW?!" He is so shook and I just nodded got my wallet and go.

"wait! this is so soon I didn't know how to even say good by properly." Xena's dad look so sad. 

"Just let the boy go. It's not like he won't come to visit at times right?" 2nd dad said, he is the lover of Xena's dad. both of them are amazing person. I was getting emotional too leaving this place.

We gave each other a farewell hug.

I'm on the taxi on my way to the airport and called Xena. I feel bad too not giving her a proper farewell all this time we've been like brother and sister.  

I thought I have fallen for her too but what I felt for Tracie and her are totally different.

After making a call she insist to wait for her at the airport. I don't wanna disturb her at her job that's why I just made a phone call but I still ended up disturbing her more.