Turning Back..

Chapter 23

Back home I spent all evening in front of the TV and flicking through the photo albums I'd left at Vic's house, Jaime was making us both dinner. There was a whole album of just me and Jacky and I flicked through them allowing all of the memories to come back to me. I used to buy disposable cameras and I can remember going to the shop at the weekend and getting them all printed off. I decided to take a picture of one of the photo's of us, it was on my 18th Birthday when we had gone to the pub at home to have my first legal drink, we were stood by the bar and I was holding a glass with some sort of alcohol in it and Jacky had his arm around me and was kissing my left cheek. I attached the photo and wrote underneath it 'Remember this? :p' I carried on flicking through, I'd wrote down the date and event next to each photograph which made it easier to identify what was happening. Jaime's voice from the doorway was the only thing that made me look up from the photographs "Hey, dinner's ready" I smiled at Jaime and got up leaving my phone and the open photo album on the couch. I followed him into the kitchen where I was greeted with what I could only describe as being a romantic meal "I thought you needed some cheering up" I went over and hugged him "Jaime this is so sweet, thank you" He chuckled

"Don't thank me yet, you haven't tried the food" I shook my head at him "I thought maybe after we could talk" I sat down at the table 

"When have I ever been disappointed with your cooking, and what do you mean by talk?" I asked as he placed a plate of Enchiladas in front of me. He sat down opposite me "Well, I know for a fact there's something deep going on in that pretty little head of yours and I want you to be able to open up to me about it" I sighed as I picked up the knife and fork next to me "Oh I was going to get wine but then I remembered you're pregnant so I just got some coke" I shook my head at him as he poured the coke into a glass and handed it to me "We will most certainly speak after this, I promise Hime" Jaime smiled and I continued to eat the food in front of me. 

Once I'd finished my food I sat and waited for Jaime to finish his, obviously this lead me to think about what had happened earlier today Mike's words were still running through my head "You've never done anything good in your entire life you're just a waste of oxygen Deven and I can assure you everyone feels the same way about you... That includes Kacie" I didn't even realize I was crying until I found Jaime crouched at my side "What is it?" He asked me "Do you want to go in the living room to talk?" I turned to him

"Could we go to the beach? It's usually empty at this time" he nodded and I stood up walking to the hallway and pulling on my boots. We walked to the beach instead of driving because I felt I needed as much fresh air as I could get, I sat down in my usual spot, just where the ocean could reach my toes, Jaime sat down next to me and he didn't say a word, he just waited until I spoke "Mike said some pretty harsh things to me earlier when I was at Vic's, just before you came to get me. I can't help but think everything he said was true, I believe him" Jaime turned away from the ocean to look at me "What did he say to you?" I repeated the words that had been buzzing through my head for the past four hours "None of that's true! You've got me and your parents... Ronnie and Jacky" I shook my head "My parents are off with me, I only told them I was pregnant yesterday Hime. I don't think they wanna talk to me at the moment. Jacky doesn't see me the way I see him anymore and..." I paused, Jaime didn't need to know those details, especially when I knew he was in love with me and I was carrying his baby. He also thought I was still in love with Vic.. Which I was, to be honest my feelings were all over the place and I guessed it was just my hormones. "Deven, shh, none of that is true and deep down you know it" I wiped the few tears thathad spilled over onto my cheeks away and wrapped my arms around Jaime's waist. He pulled me closer to him and placed a kiss on my forehead "You're better than this Deven, you're the strongest woman I've ever met and I think that's why I'm so attracted to you" I smiled "Now do you want to go home and watch TV... There's ice cream in the freezer" I pulled my head off of his shoulder and looked up at him 

"I'd love that Hime" he smiled and stood up, pulling me with him. 

When we got back I told Jaime to go find something good on the TV whilst I went and got the tub of ice cream and some spoons from the kitchen. I walked into the living room and Jaime was sat on the couch flicking through my photo album "Hey" I said as I went and sat down next to him placing the ice cream and spoons on the floor "I didn't realize you and Jacky were together at such a young age" 

"Uhuh, high school" he smiled 

"You were cute" I smirked and grabbed my phone to see if Jacky had messaged me back but he hadn't. I sighed and placed my phone on the coffee table "There was nothing on TV so I was thinking a movie, have you seen Wayne's world?" I nodded

"Yes but we should watch it, it's been a while" he pressed play on the remote control and I handed him a spoon and we shared the tub between us. I ended up falling asleep which was not what I planned to do, when I woke up my head was on Jaime's lap and his body was turned towards the arm of the chair and he was just flicking through the channels aimlessley "did the film finish?" I asked and he looked down at me "Oh you're awake now?" I nodded and sat up looking at the time on my phone it was only 11pm and I had a message back from Jacky 

Jacky: I do remember that! Your 18th right? How are you feeling today? x

I replied back with just a yes and a lot better, now that I had spoken to Jaime I did feel slightly better than I had been. It could have been the ice cream and nap I'd just had though. "Are you ready for bed?" Jaime asked me as he stood up grabbing the empty ice cream tub and spoons from the floor "I guess so" Jaime outstretched his hand out to me and I took it and we walked hand in hand down the hallway to the kitchen where he placed the spoons into the dishwasher and threw the empty carton into the trash. We then walked over to his bedroom. I slipped out of my clothes and slipped Jaime's hoodie over my head, I turned back to Jaime who walked over to me and without warning his lips crashed against mine and his arms wrapped around my waist, I was shocked at first but he pulled away just as I began to kiss back. "Sorry I've just wanted to do that all god damn evening" I smiled weakly at Jaime as his hands left my hips and he walked over to what was his side of the bed. I turned the light off and joined him feeling secure in his arms.