Turning Back..

Chapter 29

The taxi back from the airport was silent, Jacky had just gotten straight into his car and drove back to Vegas as Ronnie and Ryan had already flown back to Vegas. I was nervous about how everyone was going to react when we both walked into Kacie's house, we pulled up outside and I shook my head when Vic told me to get out, he eventually had to drag me out of the taxi and into the house. I followed Vic inside and Kacie was stood there "Where the hell have you both been!" she shouted as she walked towards us she turned to Vic and started slapping him in the chest "You idiot Vic! You had us worried sick!" she turned to look at me "And you? How could you do that to everyone?" she shook her head and walked down the corridor to the living room. Vic followed her and I just stood there in the hallway wondering what the hell I should do.. Suddenly Jaime appeared through the living room door and just stared at me, I could tell he was mad and I felt a little uneasy as he just looked at me. "Where the hell have you been Deven?" he asked, his voice was raised but only slightly. "Where's Row?" I asked him as I darted for the stairs. But he stood in front of the stairs so that I couldn't get by him "Please Jaime" he grabbed my wrists as I tried to go around him "Just tell me, where have you been and where's Jacky?" I shook my head

"Not now Jaime and not here" he bit down hard on his lip 

"Fine, we'll go home" he stated as he turned around and headed upstairs I followed him up to Marie's room where Rowan was lying in the cot, he lifted him up and smiled at him. I stood in the doorway and just stared "You remember your Mom Row?" I could feel my eyes welling up with tears "Did you even think Deven? You have a son, someone who depends on you and you pull a stunt like that!" I sighed and tried to take Rowan off of him but he pulled him closer to his chest "I don't think so" he charged out of the room and I followed him downstairs to the living room where Mike, Vic and Kacie were sat they looked up at the two of us "Could you watch Rowan for a couple of hours? Me and Deven need to have a talk" Kacie nodded 

"Jaime, no it's ok I want to take him home I" I said to Jaime as he handed Rowan to Kacie 

"Deven, just shut up ok!" I was taken aback by Jaime's anger and I silenced myself. I glanced at Vic who was giving me a sympathetic look. I shook my head at him before walking out of the room and into the hallway.

We were in the car driving back to Jaime's apartment "Jaime please just look at me" I said to him

"I'm driving" he stated simply, he was tense and I didn't like it at all, I placed my hand on his bicep and he shrugged me off  "I slept with Jacky." I blurted out and he just laughed

"Was that meant to surprise me?" I bit my lip "I said we will talk when we get to the apartment" I just stayed quiet after that. It was like seeing Vic angry for the first time. That scared me. Jaime however, he was always so happy and full of energy but right now he was angry and you could see it written all over his face, his hands gripped the steering wheel so tight that his knuckles were white. Jaime walked up to the front door when we arrived at the apartment and I followed nervously behind him and into the hallway where he abruptly stopped, he turned to me as I closed the door "I'm so mad I don't even know what to say to you" he stated as he rubbed his cheeks out of annoyance 

"Jaime I understand, you should be mad at-"

"No Deven shut the hell up!" he started to stalk over to me and I backed away until I was on the wall "I have spent the last three days worrying about you and for what?" I looked down at the floor "You were with Jacky! Your ex" I sighed and went to speak "No I'm not finished, did Vic really go all the way out there to find you? What is going on? Please help me because it's clear you don't want to be with me" I groaned

"If you would just let me explain myself Jaime!" he sighed 

"What so you can come up with some lame excuse?" I shook my head at him and grabbed his hands "No, please Hime" he sighed again and let go of my hands walking into the living room. I followed him and sat down on the couch next to him "The past few months I've been all over the place and you know that" he looked up at me "I just, I needed to get away and I thought maybe I still had feelings for Jacky, but I don't. I worked that out, I just missed my past I guess" I looked down at my hands "But then Vic came to get me and I sat with him on the plane, he never sent those divorce papers off, we are still married, he's trying to get me back but I made it clear that I was with you" 

"And how do you feel about Vic?" he asked me, his voice was lowered now and I didn't feel as uneasy "Me and Vic are over, I made that clear to him on the plane" I told Jaime, I looked up at him and he was tearing up "Hime? Are you ok?" I asked feeling a little uneasy again. I couldn't handle men crying. It was something I hadn't really come into contact with, he placed his head in his hands "I thought I was going to lose you, I thought I'd never see you again. I honestly thought you and Jacky had jsut given up with everything here and gone home" I swallowed hard because that was my original plan. If Jacky hadn't still been in love with Charlotte or had the band depending on him then I think maybe he would have stayed "No Jaime, I wouldn't have been able to to do that to you, the guilt would have been too much and leaving my son would have been worse" I moved closer and pulled his hands away from his face and pulled his head up to look at me "Jaime, I chose you" I wiped the tears from his face. Did I really mean that much to him? 

The fact that Jaime had cried this afternoon made me realize just how selfish I had been, as usual like I always do I'd been putting my feelings in front of everybody else's and I was going stop being so selfish from now on. I decided to go and fetch Row from Kacie and Mike's, I needed to apologize to Kacie as well for just disappearing like that. I went into Jaime who was sat in the living room "I'm heading out to get Row, are you going to be ok?" I asked him 

"I'll be fine, are you going to be long?" he asked nervously

"I don't know, I need to apologies to Kacie and stuff but I don't think I'll be too long, want me to grab some take out food on the way home?" he nodded "Think about what you want and I'll call you before I head home" he nodded and I went over to him pressing a kiss on his lips "I won't be long" I grabbed my purse and car keys before leaving the apartment and heading to Kacie's house. 

When I got to Kacie's I knocked on the door and she answered with her arms folded across her chest "Deven, please come in" I smiled at her and stepped inside

"I want to appologise" I told her "I shouldn't have ran away like that" she shushed me

"I'm not mad at you Dev, I know what it's like, for godsake I ran when I found out I was pregnant, I pretended to be dead so I'm not one to talk" I nodded at her

"Where's Mike?" I asked her a little scared that he would be around

"He went to help Vic move back into his place" I raised any eyebrow

"He's moving back to-" Kacie nodded "But I thought he sold the place?"

"He told us he needed space, so he's going back. He never sold it he put it up for rent" I nodded and sighed "Are you and Jaime ok?" she asked me

"I think so" I told her

"And you are still together" I smiled

"Of course, I came to fetch Row, has he been ok?" Kacie smiled as I followed her up the stairs

"He's been so quiet, your so lucky to have such a well behaved baby" I smiled "Marie was a nightmare when she was first born" we walked into Marie's bedroom to find him laid in the cot, he was awake and wriggling around. I waved at Marie who waved back from her position on the floor "Hey baby!" I whispered as I lifted him out of the cot "I'm going to head straight off, I told Jaime I'd get take out" Kacie nodded

"That's fine I'm just glad you two are both ok now. But seriously Deven, if you ever want to talk I'm here and I will listen, I know I've been a bad friend recently and I want to make it up to you" I shook my head at her "Don't be ridiculous Kacie, you've been an amazing friend and I shouldn't have and won't shut you out again like I have" she gave me a hug and we headed downstairs "I'll see you tomorrow probably" she nodded and waved as I left the house with Row. I rang Jaime once I was in the car "Hey, have you thought about what you want to eat?" I asked him when he answered

"I was thinking Pizza? Get me the one with the most meat on" 

"Sure, I won't be long" I put the phone down and into the cup holder before backing out of Kacie's driveway and heading to the nearest Pizza Hut.

Back home I was sat on the living room floor next to Jaime, Rowan was in his little seat, I grabbed my phone from the floor and brought up Instagram to take a picture of me and Hime, Jaime held a slice of Pizza up and I snapped a picture of the two of us. I typed in the caption "Pizza Night!" adding the little Pizza Emoji at the end. We were watching some Soccer game on the TV which neither of us were really interested in. Jaime grabbed Rowan from his chair and held him in his arms "Aw, can I take a picture?" I asked him and he nodded, I brought up Instagram again and took a picture of him and our Son "Let me see" he asked and I showed him the screen of my phone "Post it"