Hear Me(On going)

Her side

Keyla's POV

The moment na masigurado kong kompleto na yung 12serenity sa practice room pumunta na agad ako sa ospital. Limitado lang yung oras ko kasi alam kong anytime pwedeng pumunta doon si mom and tito drek. Or even Kysler or the 3 girls.

I want to talk to Brionna. I want to tell her everything. I also want to ask permission. I want to say sorry and I want to explain myself. I want to go back to the time when everything is fine.

Binuksan ko agad yung pinto ng room niya thinking na walang tao but I was wrong. Someone's here. It's Jared.

"Yes?" Jared.
"Can I talk to Brionna? It's urgent please. Is she asleep? Can I wake her up?" tuloy tuloy kong tanong.
Nagkibit balikat siya at lumabas ng kwarto.
"Brionna?" Tawag ko sa kanya pero hindi siya sumasagot. Tulog? Am I wrong timing?

"Brionna?" tawag ko ulit at medyo ginalaw sya.

Iminulat niya yung mata niya at nagtataka ang itsura nya nang makita ako.
"Can we have a talk?" tanong ko pero hindi siya sumagot. I suppose it's a yes. Umupo ako sa tabi niya. Huminga ako ng malalim bago mag salita.

"One day there's a girl that I really cherish. I love her so much because she listen and protect me. Then suddenly she got into accident while with me. Honestly it was supposed to be me who got hit by the car but she pushed me away. She saved me. We brought her into the hospital and I was so afraid. Afraid of losing her. Afraid that I might live alone. She got comma for 3 months and her father got so angry with me. He abandon me. Separate me to the family. Separate me from that girl. She's alive but I grew up alone. She had amnesia but her parents didn't bother to make her remind of me. I grew up longing for her. Wanting to be with her. It's too painful until that longing and wanting became envy... I envy her for she had everything that the two of us should have... I get angry because she don't remember me. Not even recognized me. I was angry because she left me alone. In a lonely place. In the dark room.  *sobs* I promised myself not to cry anymore for her. But.. I still am. Until now. Despite of all envy I still cry for her now. Still afraid that I might lost her again. Wishing that I am the one who's dying not her. I'm so sorry.."

"At least even just now.. I can protect her. If only I can do something for her. I wish I can still be with my sister.."
I burst out crying the moment i said the word sister. How I miss to call her that. How I miss to have her beside me. I don't know if she'll forgive me or not.

"You killed my child..." She said crying.

"I'm so sorry.. Sorry.. I didn't mean to. I was driven by anger, envy and jealousy. Sorry.. I really am sorry. I know my apology can't bring back your kid. I'm sorry but can I, at least visit you here? Even secretly. Believe me Brionna I really regret it."

"..."

"Please let me make it up to you."
She's not answering... I'm expecting it. I know she's very very angry with me.

"I'm really sorry. Thanks for listening. I go now.."

"I'll..." Brionna.

Lumingon ako para tignan siya
"..think about it."
I cried even more.
"Thank you" with that I left.

***
I can't just sit and watch while Brionna's suffering. I can do something. I know.

"You match with her." sabi ng doktor.

"So she can have operation?" I asked.

"It would be so dangerous. It's like I'm gonna kill you to save her. And besides, there's no much assurance that she can make it."

"Just do it. Please."

"It's 25/100 and we need a miracle to make it successful!"

"Then I'll beg God. Just please do it. I beg you. Save her. Please."