Chapter 18

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It's almost the end of gaphi and Ethan till hasn't said much. I mean he cant be mad at me right. If I were to say him it would give anything away so I said someone I used to have a crush on when I was younger. I don't have a crush on anybody anymore. I just love somebody and it's him.

I look over to him and see him staring at me. I smile softly and he just blinks. I give him a confused face like I don't know what's going on. He returns with an eye roll and gets up. He starts to walk away. I am not letting him get away though.

"Ethan!!!!" I yell at him. He turns around wide-eyed. I realize what I just said and cover my mouth. The girls look up to me and Riley shakes her head.

"What did you call him?" Emma asks.

I don't have a voice. I am completely speechless. I can not believe I just said his first name just because I was upset that he was mad at me. I looked at Ethan and saw the thinking face that he pulls. He is trying to find a way out of this mess. But its to late. I know it and I think he knows it to.

"She called him Ethan." Riley said with a sigh.

"Why? Even if that was his real name shouldn't she know that you don't call counselors by their real name?" Flora asked confused.

I nod with my head down. Someone is going to let out the secret to Flora and Emma. It's either going to be Riley, Ethan or I.

"It is my real name." Ethan said. He sighs. "Remember the question Riley asked me about if I had a girlfriend here at camp?"

The girls nodded still confused. Ethan sighed again. He raised his hand and counted to three. Right when he got to three Flora replied.

"Ohhhhhhhhhh. Wait...What? You guys are dating?" She said pointing to me and Ethan. I nodded again. Great now Ethan is going to be really mad at me and he might lose his job if they say anything to anybody else.

I look at Ethan and see him walk over to me. He grabs my hand and squeezes it.

"Well, I guess we don't really have to hide from them anymore."

" Yes but we still need to hide from everybody else." I said. The girls except for Riley still have a surprised look on their faces from the news we just gave them.

"That's amazing!" Said Emma. "I mean you guys seem really close and before now I thought it was just because of what you said the first day Riley, but I always thought you guys looked cute together. Now I know that you guys are together and its even better."

We smiled at her and thanked her for being okay with it and we told her not to tell anybody. Next everyone looked at Flora.

"I don't know what to say." She started. "You guys shouldn't be together. It's against the rules here and you both can get in trouble. One slip and it all ends. It's not my business but honestly I think this is a bad idea. I'm sorry."

I detach my hand from Ethan and walk over to Flora. I bend down to her and give her a hug.

"It's okay Flora. We know it's a bad idea and if we didn't like each other so much we wouldn't be together and this wouldn't be a problem. But Ethan and I love each other and sadly we are going to have to hide from people for the week until we go back to Hamilton." I said. Once I got up it was time to go get ready for Primetime.

Ethan and I left the girls, linking our arms and walking to the Pine Cabin. We get there first and I run in to change into a pair of sweatpants. I then change my shirt into Ethan's Workout sweatshirt. It says Howthon on the back. I take my hat off and put on bug spray. I change into my running shoes and leave the cabin as the boys start walking up the ramp. I go to sit next to Ethan when he grabs my waist and gets me to sit on his lap. I put my head on his shoulder while he rubs my stomach softly. He kisses my neck softly. I lift my head up and face him.

"I love you so much. You don't understand how much you mean to me." I say to him. I make sure non of the boys are coming out of the cabin and nobody is walking by before I kiss him on the lips. He looks in my eyes and smiles.

"I love you too Riley. You are the most beautiful girl in the whole world and I am so honoured to be able to date you and call you mine. You are so funny and bubbly. You are smart and I love talking to you all the time. You are just so perfect that it blows my mind that no other guy has noticed and grabbed you for themselves." He says.

I look down. I don't believe Ethan. I am not perfect. I am not beautiful. I've thought like that ever since grade 4. At that age a lot of the girls were getting attention from the boys in the class. But I wasn't. I had crushes on a lot of guys from grade 4 to grade 8, but every time I asked them if they would go out with me I got declined because I wasn't pretty. I understand where those boys are coming from. I am big. My stomach is not flat like other girl my age. My stomach looks like I'm five months pregnant. My thighs are big so there is no gap between my legs. My neck is big so it is really hard not to have a double chin. And as for my face I have a big forehead. My cheeks are big and my nose is huge. I just don't like anything about myself.

I have almost never had a boy like me. I had one guy like me a lot to the point that he would write me poems and little notes. The only reason why I never went out with him is because I thought of him as my older brother. You know those friends that you have that you bug each other a little but at the end of the day you know you can trust them. That was him. So it was kind of gross when he would ask me out over and over again. He finally moved schools and it was over. So honestly when Ethan first asked me out I thought I was dreaming.

I looked at Ethan and shook my head. "I am not beautiful. I am not perfect. I am loud but not in a good way. I am not funny unless its to make others feel better because I am sad. I am not smart. And certainly people don't like talking to me. So Ethan if you really think all these things you seriously have problems." I say with a tear rolling down my face.

Ethan nudges me off of him when the cabin door opens. I sit beside him with my head down, tears falling down my face. I look a little with out showing my face to see who it is. My brother.

"Wyatt, can you tell Sirius that Riley and I are going to either be late to or miss primetime?" We are going to stay here. She isn't feeling well so she is going to lie down in her bed." Ethan says. Wyatt replies saying sure and runs down the ramp.

I guess the rest already left while I was thinking. Ethan grabs my hand and pulls me to the door. He opens it and we enter.

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