Summer Love

Chapter 37

Ethan and I get to the lodge and notice that we are sitting outside for lunch. That never happens unless Jonathan really wants us to be out of the lodge. We go over to our table and sit on the end of the table.  I look at the food and suddenly don't feel hungry anymore. I sit there looking at my plate slightly disappointed with myself because I know at camp it is really important to eat all three meals. We do so much stuff at camp that eating at every meal brings back energy that we lose.

Ethan looks over at me from across the table.
"Riley, you okay?"  His face shows so much concern that it makes me feel even more guilty about not being hungry and the fact that I don't want to eat.

"Not hungry."  I mumble embarrassed. I look back own at my plate avoiding Ethan's face. I feel a light tap. On my leg and look up at Ethan with some tears falling from my face. He gets up and I guess he wants me to follow him so I get up.  He goes over to Sirius and whispers in his ear. Sirius nods and Ethan keeps walking towards Cabin Path with me following him.

We get to the cabin, walk up the ramp and through the door. Once we get inside Ethan closes the door and turns to me.

"What is it Riley?" He starts. "Why aren't you hungry?"

"I don't know. I sometimes get in these moods where I'm barely hungry and then other times I'm so hungry I could eat everything in the area. I'm just not hungry. If I force myself to eat I know I'm not going to feel well for a bit and want to sleep." I answer.

"We have done and out next. If you don't feel good you can lie down and sleep for a bit. We both were planning on sleeping in the first place because we barely got any sleep last night anyways." Ethan explains.

I look up at him. "I'm sorry. I forgot about everything and I'm just so annoyed with myself about dragging everything on you. When I trust somebody I usually have a hard time believing that they actually care and want to help me. Last year when I was in grade nine there was a teacher who I got along with very fast. He would help me with work or if I was having a problem or if I was stressing out or acting out in my classes. I would rely on him to help me with things because I trusted him a lot. But in the back of my head I kept thinking that he doesn't actually care because he gets paid to be a teacher and part of the job of being a teacher is making sure the kids are okay. I went up to him once and asked him about it and he said that is true that that is what teachers are told to do but he feels like he could have stopped helping me along time ago. He said that if he didn't care he could've sent me to someone else to help me and just stop helping me all together. I knew he was right but I still had this feeling that he didn't care. I do that to myself all the time. That's why I have such a hard time trusting people. I feel that if I start trusting people they don't actually care about me and they are just going to stab me in the back and it scares me so I don't make friends easy." At this part I was literally balling my eyes out.

Ethan walked up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I wrapped mine around his waist and sighed.

"Don't be scared to trust me please. Please promise that no matter what you will try to understand that I love you and that I will never stab you in the back and that I really care. I care about you then any teacher would. It's my job as your boyfriend to care and I will always be there to help you if you need it. I love you so much Riley you will never understand." Ethan whispers. He leans his head down a bit and brings my face up to face him with his finger. He connects his lips with mine for a gentle kiss.

He breaks the kiss but holds my face with his hands.
"Come eat. I told Sirius to make you a plate with a little bit of food and me a plate with food. I want you to eat all of your plate. If your stomach hurts we will come to the cabin so you can sleep at down and out. If it still hurts we will stay behind during the game for a bit till your better, okay?" ,

I nod and he smiles. He links arms with me and we head back to the table. When we get there people are leaving but the boys are still sitting at our table. Once Sirius sees Ethan and I he motions for the boys to follow him back to the cabin. Ethan nods to Sirius pretty much saying thank you and sits where his plate is. I sit down at the other plate and look at the food on it. There is a piece of turkey with a little bit of mashed potatoes and a small bun. I look at Ethan with a face of doubt.

"Riley remember what I told you. You will eat this and we can lie in the cabin for as long as we need for you to feel better if you feel sick. Eat for me please Angel." Ethan says with pleading eyes. I look down and sigh. I take my fork and take the whole piece of turkey taking small bites from the fork. Ethan looks pleased and starts eating from the bigger plate of the same food.

I finish the rest of the plate and put the fork on my plate. I look up to Ethan and see him with a big smile on his face. He looks around before he leans forward grabs my face and kisses me. He sits back in his seat before he grabs our plates and walks into the lodge to put the plates in the dish room for the VOKs to clean. He comes back out, walks towards me and holds out his arm for me to link mine with. I get up link my arm with his and we walk to the cabin.

I can feel my stomach start to really hurt while we are walking up the ramp and open the door to the cabin. There is a half an hour until the boys will leave to camp wide game. I'm hoping Ethan and I will be able to play a bit but my stomach is really hurting. I climb up the ladder to my bed and wrap myself with my blankets closing my eyes to sleep.

I don't nap ever really so for me it isn't actually sleeping what I am doing. I guess it is but I can hear everything going on around me. So right now I can hear Ethan getting something from his drawer and now heading to his bed. I can hear some of the boys whispering or snoring. I can hear all of this but I am still sleeping in a way.

What feels like five minutes later but is actually thirty minutes later Sirius tells the boys to get up and get ready for camp wide game.

"How are we supposed to change is Riley is in the cabin?" What sounds like Thomas asks.

"Riley is sleeping right now. She isn't feeling good so her and I are going to rest for a bit longer than we are going to come join the game." Ethan explains sleepily. I then hear shuffling as the boys get out of their beds and change for camp wide game.  I hear the door open and close over and over as the boys leave the cabin. Once I guess the last person leaves Ethan speaks.

"Ri?" He asks in a whisper.
"Yeah." I reply in a whisper as well.
"You feeling okay?"
"I mean my stomach doesn't hurt that much anymore. I guess I took a thirty minute nap so I feel a bit better. I really want to play the camp wide game even if it is Prey vs. Predator. I also know that you really like that game and I don't want you to miss out." I explain.
"I love you Riley. If you feel okay we can get dressed and leave for the game. Are you sure you don't want me to stay with you throughout the game?" He asks.
"No." I say. " I'm just going to slow you down and I don't want to do that. If I get out and become a hunter I'll come find you and depending on how your doing you can decide whether you want to come hang with me or stay playing the game."

He gets up from his bed and turns to me when my head is lying.

"There is no question. I will hang out no matter what." He says. I sit up and lean to his face. I connect our lips bringing my hands to his cheeks.

I break from the kiss. "Let's go." I whisper.