I sat in front of Ashton, out on the balcony porch thing. We just stared at each other and I wanted so badly to remember something, anything of this boy. But I couldnt memorize a single ounce of him. It was so confusing and it made me aggravated.
"I want to sing to you.." he spoke softly. I nodded, allowing him to do what he wished.
"Girl im in love with you
This aint the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday"
I watched Ashton, seeing as he got so into Ordinary People by John Legend as if it was the easiest thing for him. The way his voice altered at certain parts to add his own certain touch, to make it original. The way his mouth moved as the words escaped past them.
"I know I misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We dont know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we could take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow.."
My heart was beating faster than its usual obstruction as I knew it wanted to give itself up to the voice of a boy I had no memories of. It wanted that feeling, instead of the lack of comfort it received from my loss thoughts.
"Brinley, will you go on a date with me?" he asked so fluently, that I almost jumped at the offer. But instead I gained self-control and didnt speak for a few minutes until Ashton let out a sigh of defeat and got up, before he reached my bedroom door I answered his question.
"Okay."
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Riley was helping me prepare for the date tonight. It had to be fancy. Not a casual fancy but fancy.
I looked at my thighs, alone in the bathroom seeing how badly damaged they were. They were noticeable. My cuts. But they were healing.
I slid on nude tights, which stayed my natural skin color but covered the cuts, I was thankful for that. I walked out with a towel around my body and went over quickly to my bedroom as Riley stood there with clothing lied out on my bed.
She handed me a white strapless bra and made me put it on, I did so while facing away from her. Once I finished she handed me the Ax Metallic Tube top Kick Out dress, instructing me to slide it on, once I did it felt tight. Riley said it was an xxs because I was so tiny. I thanked her, knowing I wouldnt want to feel uncomfortable during the date.
Once I finished putting it on she handed me Koi Couture Ladies Hr110 Mint Green Bow Wedges. I sat awkwardly on the foot rest and put on my wedges, after standing up I felt awfully tall. Riley smiled and sat me in front of my vanity and began curling my hair into light waves then turned me away from the vanity to apply makeup to my eyes.
It took maybe about 2 hours to get me fully ready and use to walking in heels once more. Riley got called, saying that they were all downstairs, waiting for me. Before we walked out, Riley placed small flowers in random places of my hair that highlighted the makeup and dress. I thanked her silently as I took my clutch and held my phone and credit card inside of it.
Riley signaled me to wait, I did as told and waited. "I present to you, the lovely and beautiful Brinley Rose for the marvelous date with sir Ashton Irwin." she said highly of us all. I took cautious steps down the stairs til I reached where Riley was, exposing myself to the coffee shop, in which was closed. Literally every boy had their jaw dropped, and my self-consciousness began to overcome myself.
Ashton POV
My jaw literally dropped just as my heart stopped and leapt into my throat as soon as I caught sight of Brinley. I wanted to cry. She looked stunning, gorgeous, beautiful, anything in the english dictionary to describe a person as delightful as her.
The way the white dress clung to her waist as it escaped her hips to end mind thigh made my breathing falter. Usually make up on her, I wouldnt prefer but it suited her well for tonight. Her hair fell so elegantly and her heels made her slender legs look lovely even though they were tiny things.
I shook out of my trance, noticing she was becoming self conscious and took her hand. I liked the fact that I was at least 2 inches taller than her still. I kissed her hand gently and smiled, she just blushed and hugged me, I couldnt help but hug back and I knew that everyone was taking pictures.
Brinley in her dashing white while I wore complete black. Total opposites, but I knew I was head over heels for this girl.
Anna and Riley demanded for a nice picture, so we agreed. Brinley had her arms around my waist as if she was still hugging me but was turned slightly for the picture, as she held the biggest smile ever. Me on the other hand, I couldnt take my eyes off of her, I smiled softly as I stayed looking down at the beauty as I heard the cameras go off and the pictures were being taken.
"Are you ready lovely?" I asked her, gaining a nod for a reply.
I led her over to the sleek black car, opening the door for her to help her in and followed in suit as a chauffeur drove us to the location that was to be the spot of our date. She talked about how she felt, what she was thinking, and my mind couldnt help but capture every bit of it.
"I just dont understand why my parents hated me so much. I understand I made a mistake, but look what it has gotten me. I have a terrible eating disorder that is so hard to overcome, and if we go to dinner I know I will have to eat, but I will more than likely throw up more than needed. More than required to be healthy, even though forcing yourself to do so isnt exactly that.
But I just want to be happy. I want to make people happy and not worried for once, but this, me being the way I am.. I cant possibly do so.
I forgot you Ashton, and I feel terrible about it. I dont even know how the hell to get the memories back into my mind to know all that we have gone through. Everything we've helped each other with. Im sorry and I just want to make everything right." she spoke.
I just hugged her, and I knew this was all that mattered in the world. To have her in my arms, and to be in this marvelous moment.
