I held Brinley in my arms as she prepared me something to eat. I kept my arms around her too small of a waist, watching as she made garlic rice and pork chops for me. "Will you try to eat with me?" I asked softly in her ear. I felt her stiffen, "I- Im not hungry.." she spoke softly. I kissed her shoulder, "Please.. You can have some of my food. Not even a lot, just two bites.. Please love.." I practically beg her.
"Fine.." she spoke, I didnt expect it so I turned her around quickly and kissed her softly, causing a smile to form on her face.
Her attention was brought back to the food as she finished and placed in on a plate, pouring a cup of soda for me and grabbing ice cold water for herself. She took the food and drinks to the sofa and set it on the small table. I sat on the flood and pulled to to sit between my legs.
She eyed the food, her mind calculating how many calories would be in each bite and she sighed, knowing she had to eat it all to make me happy. I took the fork and knife that was on the plate and cut up the meet, then taking the fork and gaining a piece of pork chop and some rice on it. "Ready?" I asked her. Her hands shook slightly but she nodded and opened her mouth as I fed her the food and made sure none fell.
She chewed slowly and for a long time before I saw her actually swallow. She cleared her throat, and drank 1/3 of her water. "How do you feel?" I asked her. Her eyes watered a bit as she looked at me. "I feel fat." she choked out as tears fell. I quickly pulled her into a hug, "No baby. No, you're not fat. Im so sorry I made you eat that.." I spoke softly, the guilt eating me alive as her tears wet my shirt.
I held her close, kissing her shoulder and temple and head. She calmed down slightly but I knew what she wanted to do. She kept clearing her throat so I stood up, taking her hand to the bathroom. She looked at me, and I nodded. "Can you get out please?" she asked. I didnt want to but I let her be and closed the door, standing outside of the bathroom as I listened to the shower run and the light gagging sound that never fully escaped her mouth before I heard contents of her stomach inside of the toilet, making my body cringe.
I heard the toilet flush and the shower turn on, the faucet of the sink ran, indicating she was brushing her teeth. Once the door opened I pulled her in my arms, "Im so sorry.. I just- I wanted to help.." I choked out. She looked directly in my eyes.
"Thank you.. I tried.. But, maybe we should start small.." she whispered, and I swear my heart leapt when she agreed to eating.
Brinley POV
I held Ashton's hand as we walked into a small organic cafe, he wanted to help me eat. I didnt want him worrying so I allowed this while he was hear, knowing when he left my eating would disappear once more.
We went up to the register where I got a better view at the menu. I asked for the smallest fruit bowl they had which contained 10 pieces of fruit. I thanked them and Ashton as he payed and they handed me my small bowl and we sat at a table.
Ashton sat next to me, which you'd usually assume people to sit across from each other but he wasnt having it.
I observed the food, counting the calories. I picked up a grape, taking a deep breath. I felt Ashton's hand on my lower back, rubbing small circles into it to calm me down. I took a small bite from the grape and tried my best to swallow it own without wanting to gag.
I allowed it to fall into my stomach before finishing off the rest of the grape in a matter of minutes.
I looked at Aston sadly, feeling guilty that he had to sit down with me and force me to eat. That he had to deal with me trying to eat.
"Tell me what you're thinking..." he whispered. I looked directly into his eyes, "I feel bad.. Because you're here practically forcing me to eat when you could be out having a good time touring.. You didnt have to come on your own.." I spoke softly. He smiled lightly, "They gave us a break. And the boys thought it'd be good for me to come. Believe me, I would have came either way." he smiled, "And, this. Being here with you, is much better than a boring day of doing nothing love." he told me, resting his forehead against mine.
I had to eat for him, it was something I needed to do. I kissed his lips lightly and turned my attention back to the bowl of fruit. I picked up a piece of a banana and ate the entire thing even though I chewed it multiple times I finally allowed it into my stomach.
Grabbing the bottle of water in front of me, I drank a big sip of it, sighing afterwards. "You dont have to eat it all." Ashton told me, obviously noticing my struggle. I shook my head and grabbed one of the strawberries and ate it piece by piece. It probably took me 5 minutes to eat the entire thing.
By the time I felt completely full I had only eating 5 pieces of fruit and it took me about 45 minutes. I apologized to him, but he was fine with it because he ate the rest of my fruit and ordered himself a smoothie while I got another water bottle.
I took Ashton's hand in my own, lacing our fingers gently. He looked down at me and smiled. "Can I take you on a date?" he asked, my face heated up and I nodded, knowing there could be no denying him. He means too much to say no to, even if he doesnt know how much he means to me.
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I had to change, Ashton said to dress fancy but casual. Riley was sitting on my bed, helping me decide what I should wear.
She dug through the untouched Forever 21 clothes and handed me my Garden Goddess Pleaded Skirt. I nodded and picked out my white Aria Tank from Bardot. Riley picked out white opaque tights and I grabbed a cream knit cardigan from TOPSHOP to tie the outfit together.
I quickly changed, my back to Riley so she wouldnt see the mess decorating my thighs. I thanked the lord that the white was bold enough to not show the scars. My outfit was on and Riley told me to wear the boots I had been earlier. I didnt feel like arguing so I did so.
Riley sat me down and began doing my hair while I did some light makeup. Just a thin line of eyeliner, some mascara and a bit of foundation. I smiled at my finished face, and when Riley finished my hair I couldnt thank how beautiful it turned out. It was a double waterfall braid with my ends lightly curled. I felt the butterflies erupt in my stomach as the doorbell rang. She quickly sprayed me about a dozen times in perfume before ushering me down the stairs.
The door opened while I was mid way down the stairs and revealed Ashton. He wore tight black pants with a red button up top and new all black vans. He had his glasses on and my heart leaped out of my chest seeing that. When I finally reached him, he took my hand and twirled me in a circle. "You look stunning." he spoke softly. I blushed and looked up at him while he looked down. His hand lead mine to his neck while one stayed on my waist, I pinched his cheek gently with my free hand as I scrunched my nose up to make a face at him while smiling.
A flash went off and I knew it was Riley, I hid my face in his chest while wrapping both my arms around his neck. I just saw the flashes of all the pictures being taken.
Ashton laughed, "Its fine love. You look perfect." he told me, making me look up at him. He kissed my forehead as I closed my eyes, allowing the flash to go off once more.
