Confident {Jailin Fanfic}

Confident {recovery.}

Fifteen.

She seemed fine.

She said she was fine.

She lied.

She wasn't fine.

Fuck it, I wasn't fine myself.

It's pressure, me and her.

I know it hasn't been easy for her, being alone. Cailin's the type who can't be alone for too long. She needs adventure and fun in her life and someone to be there for her. I think when I said new music she freaked out a bit and the thought me going on tour scared her, I know we've only been dating a few weeks now but I understand.

I really care about her.

I was so happy when we first got together and I still am.

I'm falling for her, but I can't do that if she's already willing to fall on her own.

'I'm going to see her.'

'Justin, just let Scott take care of it, he is her father after all.'

'What if this was Yael we were talking about? You wouldn't be getting on the plane right now to go and see her?'

'Justin-'

'Please.'

'Alright, go.'

I'm on the plane.

Were flying.

All I can think about is my girl.

Cailin.

How badly I want to hold her

and hug her tightly and ask her

'What the hell were you thinking'

I wanted to tell her I love her, but it seemed to soon, ya know?

It wasn't the right moment.

None of this was.

We were just started to be happy,

the both of us.

'How much longer?'

'Couple of hours, Justin. I'll try and get there as fast as I can. Just think positive.'

I waited.

And waited.

I sat.

I laid down.

I went on my laptop.

I slept.

I ate.

I used the bathroom.

Nothing seemed to make the time go by faster.

Minutes turned into hours.

Hours started to go by quickly as I find a way to kill time.

Write music.

Beats were already in my head of how I wanted the song to go, I just needed the first line and I could carry on from there.

Music is my life.
Music helped me in ways I can't even describe, it's melody and lyrics they just, speak to me.
The tell an untold story.