Well my dad took me out to eat last night.
He took me on his motorcycle.
We went for a ride before going to subway, and then another ride. It was fun. I have to admit I like the motorcycle. I like the wind in my hair and the feeling of being free. I like the time with my dad, and the pretty surroundings that surround me.
I now understand my crushes perspective a bit. The bike was fun to ride. Scary and nerve racking but it gets your adrenaline pumping and that's a good feeling.
My dad says it's something that I have gained in common with my crush. My crush is in a motorcycle gang with his dad and his dad's friends. He enjoys it, and now we have something in common together.
I doubt he will ever really take a liking to me again. I'm to annoying and weird. I get him riled up, and he try's to make me upset. But I don't let it effect me. (Much)
It's a Harley Davison bike. The ones he loves. It's a very smooth rider, and very easy. I like it and as much as I hate to admit it, I think I found a new passion. It's another thing I can do with my dad.
I have a feeling that this summer is going to change me. I'm going to adopt some new personality traits, and maybe a new attitude. I'll still be me. I still like the things I fell in love with for fun but I have a feeling I'll grow up. Adopt a new style, new look to me.
I am going into high school. Don't think to high or huge on it but I will be a freshmen this year. In high school.
I'm terrified? yes. Excited? Yes. But I have a feeling I need to grow up and mature a lot by the time I walk through those doors because if I don't I'm dead.
High school is a lot bigger then middle school. 8th grade, we were kings. Now we are starting back from the very beginning. Baby fish in a school of predators.
I know a lot of people from band. So it wouldn't be like I'm alone. But my band hates me, that's the thing. Now it's time to take a deep breath and prepare myself. Don't try to grow up to fast. I have the main high school attitude known from marching. But do grow up.
Don't stay a little kid because that's annoying. Don't try to be cool because that's obnoxious. Surround yourself with people who love you for you and you will be fine.
When you make the transition from middle to high you lose a ton of your friends. I've feared this for 3 years now. But, I think I'm ready. Shed the people who don't want to be there, because their not going to do anything good for you.
*Work hard, you're going to have a shit load of homework.
*Be yourself. Don't change for anyone.
*Get through it. You will survive.
Deep breath. You're ready.
