I'm worried and confused and hurt.
I feel like my cards have been placed wrong.
I feel like I've screwed up. I feel like I'm the bad guy here and I can't explain how.
What if I'm being played, and I'm just gullible.
Because I fell for one guy for 4 years on his lies. And now after everything.
I feel like I'm the one who misplaced even there.
I don't care about anything anymore.
I'm worried about him. But I don't think he cares about me.
I keep giving my heart out willingly. I need to stop.
I feel boy crazy. I feel like I'm going crazy.
I hate myself.
I want it to stop.
I want it to end.
I want everything to end.
