Well I think i might have just fucked up.
Whoops.
Hopefully I'm proven wrong yet I know you have your heart set..
And they keep warning me yet it's hard to ignore it..
By the end of this I'll be stuck on the side of the road broken and damaged and shattered..
*sigh* why do I do this
Why am I like this
Why does no one understand
Why does no one care?
*sigh*
I don't want to be another one of your toys.
I don't want to set up another fire pit just for it to explode and burn everything.
I don't want to build a house just for you to tear it down.
I don't want to be destroyed again.
But it will never work. I'm not good enough for you. I'm not good enough for anyone.
I'm scared of rejection.
I'm scared of being dumped.
I'm tired of dating just to have to say goodbye..
What if I don't want to say goodbye?
Yet I have to be the understanding one..
Yeah..
I have to be the understanding one. The nice one. The one that says she will be ok because it's normally my fault they leave..
Then I'm left with my own tormented mind.
Just me and my thoughts..
What am I doing anymore?
